Matt.19:26

What's Next

2009-08-02T14:22:00.000-07:00

Yet again, I've moved to a different blog!

Renewal Through Hope and Praise

2007-09-02T17:00:00.000-07:00

God is so good! Today was just what I needed. I was feeling scared about doing well in classes (especially chemistry!) and missed the body of believers. It's difficult always being around people who don't believe the same that you do. Thankfully, it's been a huge time of growth and I'm feeling more and more compassion for the lost. It's a great challenge to me to continue having a good testimony. It feels a little tiring after awhile, but I needed to be reminded that Christ will always give me the strength I need if I just rely on Him!

Becky (girl in the college ministry at Riverbend who I met last Sunday) came to pick me up and I really enjoyed the first sermon about perseverance- just what I needed! Then, after talking about God's elevation of His Name and His Word in the college ministry, I was able to meet two guys who are going to Embry too. They were going to start up (they've been doing it for several years now) a Bible study on campus, and now Becky doesn't have to take me every Sunday (she lives way closer to the church than ER).

Josh is a sophomore from Michigan and is an RA on the first floor of McKay. Steve is a senior in air traffic in Stimpson. Both were so friendly and I felt great meeting some guy friends who are believers. They'll probably be kinda like my big brothers. I'm gonna meet them at McKay next Sunday and the study should be next Thursday.

But, the absolute coolest thing that happened today: right when I came back from church, (insert name here) knocked on my door and asked if I had been at church. I said yes and told him where. He wants a ride next week "since his mom keeps bugging him to go to church." What an answer to prayer! He is the most party-hearted guy on our floor and yet there
he was asking to come to church. I'll be faithful to pray for him this week and that he'll actually still want to come when Sunday rolls around. I'm really glad I put some verses on my door. He noticed that too and figured I was a Christian. You bet I am and praise God for working through me already. I'm so honored and humbled!

(The rest of the day I did laundry, worked on Chemistry problems, and watched a movie with Kaleigh)

Super Saturday

2007-09-01T23:50:00.000-07:00

Today was so much fun! It was so nice to get off-campus after a seemingly long week. Kaleigh was the first girl I ever met (Our families sat together at the Honors Program dinner) here and we ended up being right down the hall from each other. Neither of us have cars or bikes, so we walked over to the nearby Vollusia Mall.

It felt so great to be able to forget about classes and meeting people and going to events... just shopping and talking with a buddy. It took us awhile, but we were able to find everything she needed for Air Force ROTC: tennis shoes with no bright colors for drills, plain black belt with silver buckle, and jeans that were loose enough in the legs that she could iron in a pleat all the way down. Let's just say the jeans were difficult! If you got wide leg, the waist was too big, and more often than not, they were way too long and she's not allowed to roll them up. Whew! I was just looking for fun, cheap stuff. I usually
don't like shopping too much because I just get tired walking around in stuffy stores. But, sales are sales and it was a blast.

We ate at Chick-fil-A for a late lunch to tide us over until we had dinner at Olive Garden. We have plenty of Olive Gardens back home and I love them, but Chick-fil-A was fun too because we don't have any. When we finally walked outside, instead of facing tiny biting ants, we saw dark cloud cover. Juicy droplets were comin' down so we booked it across the street to the restaurant. Dinner was salad, breadsticks with alfredo dip, and we both picked a dessert.

When we got back, we said goodbye and did our own errands. I had such a hard time sleeping! I so wanted to be rested for church, but there was a big 10pm-2am party in Tallman Commons, so it was pretty noisy even though I was on the 5th floor. I had fun watching the Sound of Music on ABC Family and then was inspired to order some of my old favorite DVDs since I had an Amazon.com gift card. I hope they arrive soon! I'd better go to bed, it's almost 12... yuck! I really hope I'm alert enough to get fed from the Word tomorrow.

Fun, Blessing, and Sorrow

2007-08-26T16:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was so much fun! After the luau at school, my parents took me back to the hotel with them to stay another night there. I got to sleep in which was glorious! Then, we walked along the beach. It wasn't too hot until the very end. There were cute little sandpipers that always hunch up when they run away from the water and poke their beaks deep into the sand in-between. I picked up some little shells as well. I even got to see some people surfing for once.

We finished getting ready then loaded in the car to go back up to St. Augustine. I tried to mess around with my little GPS device on the palm I got for being in the Honors' program- we needed to find a Sonic Drive-In... my favorite! We went to one in St. Augustine, so by that time, we were starving! I got french toast sticks, an extra long coney, and a banana cream pie shake. Yum!

Next, I wanted to see the Gator Farm! I can't believe how many alligators and crocodiles there are! This place had every one of the species, too. I saw albino ones, ones 15 feet long, ones with swordfish-like snouts, ones with bug eyes, baby ones, and ones that ate fat rats for dinner. They also have tortoises, parrots, and other exotic birds like the stork (Which is actually one of the ugliest things I've ever seen! I hope they don't bring babies- I think the poor kids would die of fear!). The only part I didn't like was seeing HUGE spiders. I'm really hoping they're not the norm on campus. They are bright colors with long segmented legs and make mondo webs! After shuddering at the arachnids, we watched a few feeding shows (birds and crocs) then went through the gift shop. I just got my typical smashed penny souvenir and mom got some postcards.

Next, it was on to dinner at the _____ (I'll think of the name later...). We had talked to the concierge at the hotel who set up a VIP thing for us. So, we enjoyed the cheaper early-bird special which came with the salad bar. Our waiter was a very nice redhead who was willing to put up with our chatter and jokes. I even got to use his crumb scooper thing. It really gets them off the table and apparently you do it every time you take a plate away from the guest. Who knew? Dad ordered prime rib with mashed potatoes and I got shrimp scampi. Mom ordered clam chowder to have while Dad and I ate our salads and fruit that we chose. He also brought us a nice assortment of bread. We even got free dessert which was lava cake! But, wait, I'm not finished yet... Mom and I got roses just 'cause. We guess the concierge used the excuse that I was going to college as a celebration thing. Pretty fun!

To be completely ready for college life, we of course had to stop at Wal-Mart where I picked up some last minute things.

To top it all off, we went back to the hotel and enjoyed the Lazy River tubes again. Then, I discovered the hot tub and tried swimming around the (now) chilly pool. Finally, Mom had heard a rumor that fireworks were going off that night over the ocean on a barge and sure enough... we saw the whole show from the pool deck.

Today was pretty amazing too. We went to church and the similarities were crazy. Well, sovereign, of course! They named the mini-streets in their parking lot: Calvin Court, Spurgeon Blvd, and Edwards Rd.!! Plus, they have a hallway devoted to the Reformers (nice plaques with pictures and info), and Bible translations (some of the original pages are in the frames!). Pastor Roy Hargrave was right on and is in close contact with Grace Community, Master's Seminary, and even Phil Johnson! The college preacher even quoted A.W. Tozer! Whad'ya know? I really enjoyed meeting everyone and can't wait to come back next week. Mom and Dad were so thankful to God for the church. It's just what I needed to find to grow in the midst of this secular university. I've already had my eyes opened in several ways... but, in a way, I always knew this kinda thing was out there. I don't feel that I was naive... just protected. I know He will continue to do so as I look to my first classes tomorrow.

After church, we had our "last supper" at Bubba Gump's. Hehe. We had hush pups, coconut shrimp, and caesar salad. I even got a cool light-flashing cup with the blueberry slushie I ordered. Somebody got rich off of making a restaurant off of Forest Gump... crazy.

Finally, we headed back to the school.

It was SO hard to say goodbye to Dad and Mom. Dad's visiting in 2 months and in 4, I see everyone again... but, sometimes I still feel like a little girl. It's not that I can't handle college... It was just the realization that life will never be the same. I'll never truly be a daughter in that Arlington house anymore. I'll just be a visitor. I know we are meant to be taught and nurtured by our parents and then we are let go. But, in my case at least, it's only because I'm too big for the nest, not because I don't want to be with my family. New friends, new family, new home. Thank the Lord that He never changes, remains the same, and had me live in the 21st century so I can call and e-mail and IM and everything else with the people I love and miss.

As my beloved Mrs. Frisk and Tozer would say:

"So let us begin with God."

Home Sweet Home- The Wood Penthouse

2007-08-24T14:16:00.000-07:00

So, instead of talking forever about all of the offices and people I've visited this week, I'm just going to make a list:

Orientation Check-In
Housing Check-In
Health Insurance Booth
Study Abroad Booth
University Bookstore
Residence Hall Meeting
Meal Plan Office (Because I get 19 meal plans a week and this week started on Wednesday, I got to stock up on drinks, cereal, chips, and bagels by using up 10 of them! Now I have plenty of snacks or things when I don't have time for a meal! :D)
Campus Security Office
Orientation Group Meetings
Free Box Lunch on Lawn
College Receptions
First Year Advisement for Courses
First Year Office
For Women Only
College of Arts and Sciences Dessert Reception
Honors Program Meeting
and tonight I go to the Luau
Finally on Sunday there is "Bands, BBQ, and Ballgames"

Whew!
Classes start on Monday

I got/won these free things: pens, pencils, laundry bag, 1 free meal at Einstein Bros Bagels (1 of the restaurants on campus), and a free Cessna-172 simulator ride

It's hot, hot hot! But I'm enjoying this week of relaxing schedules and no studying. I have the weekend to hang with Dad and Mom, go to church, and then it all changes... I know I can only succeed with God's help! Just look at this 1st semester schedule:

Engineering Physics 101
General Chemistry Lab
General Chemistry
Graphical Drawing & CATIA
Honors Seminar 1
Calculus 1

My Future Begins

2007-08-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

Thought I'd put up a quick greeting from Florida! The flight was so much shorter than the recent one to Germany, so I didn't find it too difficult to deal with a 3 hr ahead time zone. It was glorious driving through Jacksonville in a Buick Rainier with the blue sky and nearly stifling heat. I didn't mind because there wasn't a whole lot of humidity to accompany it. We stopped in my sister's old stomping grounds, St. Augustine and visited some of our favorite places: Cafe' del Hidalgo, Savannah Sweets, and various chocolate, kitchen, and accessory stores. Next, we made our way to Daytona. I took a nap and woke up just in time to take pictures of the signs entering the city. I love how there is an overflow of green everywhere although it's different than WA flora and fauna. Upon arriving at the hotel, Ocean Walk Resort, we were delighted. The room is an amazing suite with 2 bedrooms each with their own full bathroom and every window has a beautiful view of the ocean. There's of course a common room, TV in each room, a stereo, and a full kitchen. I wish my dorm room was like it! They have indoor mini golf, gaming room, internet room, indoor pools, outdoor pools including a "lazy river" you relax on tubes in... I can't even begin to explain or figure out everything you can do here. It's just wonderful. Thanks to the guy on Craig's List who needed to use his points. Then, we went to another classy joint- the Sunset Harbor Yacht Club. We had a tasty dinner and were given amazing GPS, Wi-Fi Pocket PC's and enjoyed meeting profs and hearing their encouragment. I met a very nice girl named Kaliegh from Illinois and then eventually talked with my roommate Kerry and her family afterwards. What a fun evening. I'm finally starting to feel like I can make this place my home for 4+ years. Well, better get going and let Mom use my laptop. Goodnight from Daytona!

My Five Seconds of Fame

2007-07-08T19:11:00.000-07:00

"Grace Academy valedictorian heads to the moon"

Grace Academy sent 23 young people off into the world last month, including from left, top row; Thomas Bethel and Andrew Conklin. Next row, valedictorian Natalie Spencer, Andrea Cline, Stuart Montgomery, Kimberly Weinberg, salutatorian Kaitlyn Retherford and Nicholas O’Kelly. Next row: Erik Larson, Rodion Novozhiov, Courtney Webb, Levi Wennersten, Ian Lugg, Derek George and Eric Munneke. Front row: Dolly Singh, Angela Roberts, Trechie May Tubera, Nicholas lee, Jason Plumb, Esther Martin and LaShani Rios.

Matt Doran 04.JUL.07

MARYSVILLE — Aptitude plus attitude equals altitude.

When Natalie Spencer of Arlington heard that phrase, she took it to heart and hopes someday to take it all they way to outer space.

The Grace Academy class of 2007 Valedictorian soars both in and out of school and takes her faith as seriously as her studies.

With a perfect 4.0 grade point average, that says a lot. And the 18-year-old had a lot to say at when she graduated along with 22 other seniors last month at the Christian school next to Cedarcrest Golf Course.
Spencer touched on the work of God in her address and later explained how the beauty of creation spurred her to get a pilot’s license and aim to be an astronaut someday. She will study engineering but the race is for space, she said.
“I’ve always just looked up at the sky and how beautiful it is,” Spencer said, stressing that every thing God created is beautiful, including space, something she described as “A beautiful, untouched place that I would like to explore. When I found at that you actually can go up there, I was fascinated. It was an impossible dream only a century earlier.”
She will study at Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University in Daytona Beach, Fla., where she will major in engineering physics. She’s aware that a male-dominated field might be tough, but Spencer said that kind of academic pedigree will help her chances of working at NASA.

“I think it can be a challenge in some ways,” Spencer said. “I think women have to be careful.”
Often women breaking new ground for their gender say they want equality but often don’t want to bear the consequences, according to Spencer.

“It’s all about the person, the individual’s skills and not the gender,” she added. “I am going to be careful, I want people to judge me by my skills. I don’t think it’s an issue as long as people don’t make it an issue.”

Spencer has a huge list of activities that make you wonder how she fits it all in: yearbook editor, tour guide, six years on the student leadership council, National Honor Society President, varsity soccer, basketball and track, as well as playing on the golf team and serving as a page in the Washington State Senate. In addition to earning her pilot’s license Spencer was a volunteer with the Future of Flight during her junior and senior years. She also plays the saxophone, likes playing with computers, baking desserts and performing in choir.

Her list of awards and honors are literally too numerous to mention — they would look like General MacArthur’s ribbons. Suffice it to say that in addition to a scholarship from the Marysville Rotary, she earned seven others from various organizations including her chosen school and the Museum of Flight. The daughter of two public school teachers, Spencer is quick to commend the smaller environs of Grace Academy.

“It’s a great education,” Spencer said. “I did fine on the SAT and all that. It’s home away from home.”
Her graduation speech reminded the graduates of the long line of believers who have kept and spread the faith for 20 centuries. Being part of that chain can be confining, Spencer said, but it is also a reassuring tether that keeps a believer from wandering off the correct path.

“There is just a legacy of people who have been willing to stand up for Christ,” Spencer explained a few days after commencement. “It’s something we can’t break, we have to continue the legacy.”

- The Marysville Globe

The 'Ol Switcheroo

2006-08-28T20:24:00.000-07:00

I know I mentioned this before, but I'm officially switching over to my senior year blog until next fall.

Check it out! :)

http://www.graceacademysenior.blogspot.com

Thanks for readin'!

Christ is Life

2006-07-23T14:09:00.000-07:00

Another Ichthus, another time of reflection. The retreat seemed strange in that the messages themselves were very practical. The truths seemed simple enough to apply, but in reality, with a sinful nature, it's not easy! Some of the things I learned include:

*I've got to stop being so selfish! It's disgusting how everything I do is typically motivated by ME. I don't consider others as more important very often and that's got to change! And, what are the odds, I actually feel more joyful when I do that... hmm...

*I have an amazing opportunity to be a spiritual impact, especially at school, but I'm way too focused on the next sports game, or a grade on a test, or "hangin'" with my close friends. Why don't I take the time to invest in others' lives and ask them what they believe or what they need prayer for? Hey, whad'ya know, that problem is also rooted in selfishness...

*I need to find my curiosity again. To explain, new believers are often very excited to learn as much as they can about God. They are constantly asking questions, pondering who Christ is, and want to have Christian fellowship every second. I am so used to being in a wonderful church/school environment, that I think I subconsciously assume I know all there is to know, but nothing could be farther from the truth. I want the child-like enthusiasm + adult wisdom that comes from loving God and studying His Word!

*I also loved getting counsel and just listening to many of the adults that went. I never get to really talk with the Bowers or Higgins that much, and it's such a blessing when I can. Even short conversations help me gain the right perspective on things or understand what it's like to have more of a passion for truth.

I could say much more, but I can't wait to clean up from the trip and marinate on more of what God was teaching me. As for fun times, I loved getting to know my small group better, swimming early in the morning, balancing on logs, and whispering late into the night with Kim and Esther. In closing I will leave you with a poem (amazingly enough I wrote one that didn't have a rhyme scheme. I guess it's more of a prose, then) that I wrote while sitting on a log at the beach at 5:50 am Friday morning:

Each house at the water's edge is aglow with the shine of a rising sun.
The water, still and clear as glass reflects each color brilliantly.
A soft cry in the distance, almost as a wolf, but perhaps a bird, opens my ears to the many other sounds.
Crows heartily fight for the right of a breaded snack.
A tiny sparrow rustles the leaves of a berried bush and hops to the water's edge to splash, then shakes dry.
A ruffling sound from behind tells me the ravens have also joined in the cool bath.
Off in the distance, two ducks begin the day with a brisk swim.
The waves near my feet begin to pick up their journey speed as a boat and waterski cause a powerful reaction.
Small ripples from tiny fish and insects appear constantly, though far apart from their twins.
Tiny rocks line the shore, half wet, half dry.
With blue sky above and golden waves below, I wish it would last forever.
But, praising our King is not limited to being through such magificence.
It is a beautiful, peaceful morning as the world comes alive to give glory to its Creator.

Arlington Traffic

2006-06-30T12:29:00.000-07:00

The following is a public announcement... just kidding... ahem... let me start over:

The following is an excerpt from an e-mail I sent to my grandparents about my first piloting experience. I've been blessed to be able to take flight lessons/ground school at Out of the Blue Aviation at the Arlington Airport. I absolutely love it! I think I still like the experience of boating better than flying (But Pastor Z was right, I can steer a boat pretty well... until certain guy friends decide to slow down so I crash... Camano Island baby!), but that could change as I pursue my pilot's license. But, there's nothing like the feeling of wind blowing past you and water splashing up as you crank the throttle! :D But, then again, there's nothing else like the feeling of looking down on the world and pulling g's on turns! God's creation is amazing no matter where you are! But, as I promised, here's my e-mail about last Friday's experience:

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Anyway, you asked to hear about my first flight. I loved it! The weather was so beautiful and clear and I had a blast! Ben (the instructor) said he was impressed with how well I did for my first time. I even got to make the radio calls. :) They went like this:

"Arlington Traffic
This is Cessna 51Mike
On left downwind
Runway 34
Arlington"

My favorite part of the flight was take-off (all you have to do is push in the throttle to 2500 rpm and wait to hit 60 mph, then pull back! :) ) and making turns (45 degree ones gave us 2 gs- I love that feeling!). I can't wait to have my next lesson. I'm ordering this great book from half.com I saw at the Aviation place. It's called Pilot's Handbook Of Aeronautical Knowledge and it seems to have great diagrams and information. Cathy (the lady who started the school/business) is so impressed with me she said she wants to hire me to work for her in the office once a week! She's going to match how much pay I get at Gap! Isn't that cool? I'm very excited!

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Well, just thought I'd get an update up here! I also just returned from a mini family vacation at Port Angeles and the Olympic Mountain area. We got to enjoy many beaches, beautiful hikes, and tasty restaurants!

Well, that's it for me... enjoying God's creation and gorgeous weather! What could be better? (on earth, that is...)

Were it not for Grace...

2006-06-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

No, this is not a post about the blessings of Grace Bible Church and Grace Academy (that'll come someday) although I love the people involved with both so incredibly much... This is to share a story that happened on Monday which changed my perspective.

DZ was driving Dave and I back from the soccer "practice" at 8 or so. As we passed Fred Meyer, suddently he stopped and began to turn the car around. I couldn't see what he was looking at, but I knew it was serious. DZ rolled the window down and pulled into the parking lot of the apartments across the street and got out of the car. Dave, wanting to make sure he was safe, got out too. Finally, I heard the screaming of a girl arguing with her ?boyfriend? and pushing him. I won't go into details, but she was very upset and wanted something that was supposedly hers back from him. DZ helped to calm her down and the two walked off, temporarily subdued. When the boys got back in the car, I couldn't speak. When they first got out, my thought was, "Dear Jesus, protect them! They are my dear brothers, I love them so much... I don't want to lose them!" That thougth was pretty much irrational, but you never know what can happen. Second, I started fervently praying for the man's and woman's salvation. They were lost, no doubt about it. A couple of tears entered my eyes as we left the parking lot and headed to get gas for the car. If God hadn't saved us, we could be just like that. That had me thinking for quite awhile. How happy was I at the school and church God ordained for me... How happy was I with my close friends fellowshipping... So peaceful and wonderful living under the shadow of His wings! But not everyone has that. I truly admire DZ for being willing to stop. Not just drive on by (reminds me of the good samaritan) and let the world cave-in on itself from sin. Although there are times when it's not safe for a girl to intervene, if I do have a chance to help out, I will. Praise God for keeping my beloved brothers and I safe! Praise God for giving us salvation we didn't deserve!

Please pray for the couple. They need God, not the things of this world.

Un Attack of the Seagulls

2006-05-27T11:42:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I73WV-vF1iE

Click if you Dare...

... just kidding. So not scary! And the un is on purpose. Good times.

In addition, I just started yet another blog. I'm not planning to use it as much until later this fall or maybe August, but just thought I'd give you some insight into my new idea. I might even tweak the template s'more. Too much fun!

www.graceacademysenior.blogspot.com

Cheney-Bound...Again (2 Years Later)

2006-05-22T18:41:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhhhhh! (Screams excitedly like a teenage groupie) I get to go to the state track meet in Cheney with the relay team! I was praying about this all day because I wanted to go so badly, and Coach said I can go! I have such good memories from two years ago... fun stores, breaking the school relay record, seeing my cousins compete, eating at Olive Garden and Red Robin, riding the Merry-Go-Round and whooping Stuart at the little ring toss game (you did it while riding the horses!), buying a sweatshirt, watchin' TV in the hotel room, watching stupid videos from, you guessed it! stupidvideos.com... ahhh... me as a silly little freshmen! Good times! I can't wait to make more memories, encourage the guys, support the coaches, watch my cousin (Who's so stinkin' fast he made it to state in the 100m, 200m, and 400m! He is seeded as the fastest 100m runner in the state for B league!), and have a wonderful time! I am very! very! very! excited! Thank you, Heavenly Father, for this amazing blessing! I can't believe school's almost over and this is a perfect way to end the track season instead of the horribly disappointing last Saturday Tri-District meet. Well, I have to go do homework, but just thought I'd share my "hyper-excited" thoughts! Congrats if you could actually decipher this blog...

Ever More

2006-05-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

We wrote a hymn in English class (5-19-06), so I thought I'd share mine:

Ever More

Ocean waves are crashing 'round me,
Crystal clear the water calls,
Shouting of Your grace and mercy,
Even when I sin and fall.

chorus
When my heart is overflowing,
When my hope takes wings to soar,
When my joy is full and growing,
Praise to You, Lord, ever more.
When my pain is choking slowly,
When my love is cold and worn,
When my soul feels weak and broken,
Praise to You, Lord, ever more.

Swirling winds are blowing softly,
Reminding me You're always there.
The freshness clears my doubts and questions,
Surrender all to loving care.

(chorus)

Ever more, my dearest Father!
Ever more I'll praise Your name!
Ever more, in good and bad, Lord!
Ever more Your Kingdom reign!

I Am Yours... Save Me

2006-05-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was one of the craziest days of my life. School work + quizzes + SLC meeting + district track meet+ twisted ankle + choir concert + 2 solos + no time to eat dinner + ice cream = Monday! :) First up at the meet was the long jump. 2 years ago, my pr (personal record) was 12'10". Granted, that's pretty short, but this year, I could barely get 12'! I was getting discouraged and decided that there was no point in me jumping. I stopped doing it for 5 meets or so. Coach decided to have me try it again in the league meet to get more points. I assumed that would be my last time. After all, I got 1st in the 100m, and 3rd in the 200m, but 6th in the long jump. Coach signed me up for yesterday to my surprise, so I had to at least try again. I did OK with 11' something, and ended up being 5th place, so I had to do it again for the finals. After getting 13.91 in the 100m (my new pr), I came back. I had moved my marker because I assumed I was finished, so I had to find it, and quick! Coach had me switch the foot I started with and I was ready to go. I said a quick prayer and decided to forget about form and just jump as far as I could. I threw myself in the air and closed my eyes. 12' 9 1/2"! Almost my freshmen record. Tried again... 13' 4"! I jumped from 5th place to 3rd and finally broke my 12 foot mark. It was all God's doing. It certainly wasn't my technique. After twisting my left ankle and having to jog the 200m, we hastily left for the choir concert. With two solos looming ahead of me, I knew I had to pray. Practice was one thing... I'd finally gotten comfortable singing in front of my choir buddies... but a concert? With my first note I realized I was nervous. I remembered Luther's words as he lay desperate on the ground seeking God's guidance and strength: "I am Yours, save me." I closed my eyes and focused on the words of the song. My voice gained strength and I finished well. God be praised! Tomorrow, we are singing in the high school chapel and my prayer will be once again, "I am Yours, save me." And I know He always will.

A Collection of Sentences

2006-05-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

Happy May Day! I can't believe we only have a little over a month left of school! I could definetely use prayer for using the last weeks wisely and also for the SAT (I'm taking it for the first time on June 3, day after graduation).

Just wanted to note that I finally have Banquet pictures on my flickr site. Enjoy!

For His Glory,
*Nat*

He Calmed the Storm and Saved the Drowning Woman

2006-04-27T20:32:00.000-07:00

Wow... today I experienced a crash-n-burn-in-a-glorious-fireball-complete-with-explosions-and-flames type of breakdown. :D I crack myself up, but, seriously, it was bizzare! I had spent Wednesday night small group deep in thought which continued into this morning. I was trying to understand why, when I've been much more faithful in reading the Word and prayer, I was still frustrated with choices I was making. How could I seemingly be growing, yet still clinging to finding happiness for myself? Where's the balance between wanting to have fun and hanging with friends (comfortable) and reaching out to kids who could use a Godly example (out of the box)? This morning I read 1 Peter again and was reading MacArthur's notes on Peter's life. Something really tore my heart. According to tradition, right before Peter was crucified upside-down, he had to watch his wife be crucified. What did he do? He didn't get angry, fight the guards, cry bitterly... he said three simple, yet utterly powerful words... "Remember the Lord." I couldn't believe the beauty of the Holy Spirit's work- a man is watching his love perish in a very painful way, yet he finds comfort in knowing his home is not here. She was finally going home. I was talking with Kim much of the morning discussing our future responsibilities and how amazingly close adulthood is to us. Our eyes were opened to the sad departure of our world and even "Christians" from God's purpose for relationships. Like I've mentioned before, people these days have everything backwards. They make relationships all about them and what they can get out of it- it's so selfish! A book Kim is reading made an excellent point: (In a relationship, whether friend or "romantic") Everything you do and say should be motivated by the purpose of helping the other person become more like Christ. THEN I started thinking about becoming a wife someday (Man my friends and I keep thinking about it!) and how completely unprepared I am! I'm way too selfish and emotionally unstable ;)! I want to be ready to serve my husband completely and help him along in his spiritual walk. I need to be able to put God first now and always before I can even begin thinking about a relationship! It's hard when so many young women have a desire in their hearts for a earthly protector who will love and take care of them. But, if we can't submit to our Father and father now...? What kind of helper will we be? The tears just came all of a sudden in choir as I felt so helpless and unworthy of God. I can't love the one who saved my soul and forgave my disgusting sins?? How pathetic! As I bolted from the classroom (my unfortunate habit of wanting to get away) and sprinted to the gym parking lot, my heart sank. Here I was, once again (granted it doesnt happen often, but still) in despair. Trying to find God when I knew He was there if I only would trust Him and reach out. As Mrs. Frisk reminded me later, Satan is always trying to remind us how we fail and fall short. The mistake? Focusing on myself once again. Ok, so I realize I'm not giving Him my heart completely and I'm not being wise about preparing my heart for being a Godly woman and wife. So... turn back to God! I must pray, pray, pray, and trust He will see me through! A song I have been praying lately really fits:

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen"and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy fallsI raise my hands and praise the God
Who gives and takes away

Chorus:I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember whenI stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
Who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
Repeat

Chorus

Armadillos, Creole, and Palm Trees- The South

2006-04-14T17:54:00.000-07:00

We got into New Orleans late at night and were just in time to view a sunset over the Mississippi from the tall heights of our hotel room.

Sorry... I didn't get too far, but I also had to load banquet pictures on the computer.

Ironically, we're headed to Kayak Point for a nice on the "beach" dinner. The ironic part is the fact that TK has pics from their day there and here we are going today.

Well, hopefully I'll complete my posts soon. If not, who cares, it doesn't matter in light of eternity anyway!

Sardonically yours, Nat

Armadillos, Creole, and Palm Trees- Texas

2006-04-11T21:56:00.000-07:00

Well, here it is... a photo journal of sorts from my spring break adventures. Thought it'd be more entertaining than me blabbing on forever. Enjoy!

*Just thought this sign was funny... I saw it in the Colorado airport. Maybe that's what people should call me instead!

*This is a statue of one of the Apollo 13 guys. When I saw it, I realized it was the same airport we had gone to on the DC trip two years ago! I have a picture of me posing by it in my photo album.

*Welcome to Texas! It's the Houston city lights at night. It's a little blurry, but taking pics on the freeway isn't always easy!

*Here's the Pontiac Torrent we got to drive half-way across the country (When we added all the miles up, we did actually drive all the way across the country if you count the going and return trip!)

*And here we are at Johnson Space Center looking inside one of two mission control rooms. It was here that the fateful words were heard: "Houston, we have a problem". The middle screen is tracking the International Space Station and the right screen is a live feed from the ISS of the earth.

*This is the room where all the

astronauts train. They have full size models of all ISS modules, a space shuttle, and "weightless" simulators. Pretty sweet!

*Here are some lovely examples of rockets including the ever-humongous Saturn V-5. No NASA visit is complete without a grassy field of space vehicles!

*Hey look, it's a famous Texas longhorn! They make their home at JSC. Granted, it's weird to see them grazing amid space ships... hmm...

*It's me exploring some shuttle drawers. The freeze-dried and water-deprived foods don't look that great... trust me.

*I wish I was the one floating around instead of the astronaut dude... :D

The official sign:

*How'd you like to live here?

I can't even begin to say that!

*Here I am enjoying the sun next to LeTourneau University's clock tower. I like the effect of my dad's shadow in the bottom corner...

*Yet another picture of me... this time showing off my new t-shirt.

*Here's a stuffed armadillo I got with a cute hat that says Texas on it. He was creatively named "Army". Of course the only real armadillos I saw in Texas were dead... on the side... of the road.

*I'm sorry, but it just made me laugh. What can I say?

*Goodbye Texas!!

And... I'm Off!

2006-03-30T21:27:00.000-08:00

Well, just wanted to say goodbye to everyone before I leave on vacation/college visit time! I'm sad I have to miss the open house at the Sarr's and one28, but it's part of God's plan for me to go to Texas and Florida instead. I'll try to post somehow while I'm down there or I might just journal thoughts and post them all when I return. I am so thankful for the time that I will have (many hours in the car when we trek from Texas to Florida in a rental car) to re-evaluate where my spiritual life is at and focus on what I want to work on. I love just having time to think and pray! May I be open to His leading! I hope all of you have a wonderful spring break, too (if you get one)! I can't wait to come back to fourth quarter refreshed and ready to finish the year off strong for the Lord!

First, however, I have a track meet tomorrow, and you all know how I feel about that... God's working in me, for sure, but I'll still need prayer and strength to overcome the nervous feelings.

Thanks, my brothers and sisters! Please remember to put God first in your lives and love Him above all! I've been frustrated with issues in others' lives around me- their problems are all a result of wrong priorties. They are seeking after things of this world. It can be discouraging. I know God is faithful and ultimately He will get the glory, but seeing the ugliness of sin breaks my heart.

See you a couple Wednesdays from now! I'm off to 80 degrees and pensive road trips!

Praise God! Soli Deo Gloria

It's God's Plan, Not The Planet Alignment

2006-03-25T07:58:00.000-08:00

Isn't it a wonderful thing that God is the one in control of our futures? I have been very confused lately just wondering what plans He will have for me in light of the plans I am attempting to make for myself. My family and I are going "college-visiting" over spring break by flying to Texas and driving along the gulf to Florida. More than warm weather and good memories, those two states hold two colleges (of four total) I am interested in. LeTourneau University (TX private Christian) and Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University (FL private). So here I am making grand plans to do well on the SAT or ACT and go off to college for four years to become an aeronautical engineer. Then what? Oh I plan to be married sometime after that and working at NASA... WAIT A MINUTE! I have no idea what will happen! How can I even begin to assume something, good grief! I don't know where I will live, what job I will have, if I'll even be able to find a guy who likes me (and loves God most of all), if I'll make it in to any of these colleges, if...if...if! If I try to plan out my whole life and think, "Ok, THAT's exactly what will bring me happiness," I am dead wrong. Ecclesiastes has made that crystal, looking into the fountain of life clear. I must find joy, right now, in being a junior and doing the research paper I have to do today, and going to work this evening. As for the trip, while I'm down there, I'm going to make sure that my heart is right with the Lord so I listen to his prompting. I know He will guide me if I ask.

Another issue I'm unsure about goes back to the good 'ol days when one28 was held on the opposite side of the hallway. I believe we were somewhere in the relationships series and the topic of the role of women came up. My favorite moment, of course, being when SKH made an illustration like so: "How can a woman be fulfilling her responsibilites to her family if she's off doing something else... orbiting around the moon or something!" Of course, that was before he knew I wanted to be an astronaut, so it was a very comical moment. Everyone, ok not EVERYONE, turned to look at me. I thought it was hilarious that he chose that, but it honestly did get me thinking. I was the farthest thing from offended, I know that comment happened for a reason. Since that time, I've often wondered why I had that desire at the forefront of my mind instead of being a wife and mother. I've always wanted that, too, I guess, but I never really thought about the conflict that might come from being so busy as an engineer. Seeing all the wonderful relationships of the one28 staff with their children is a beautiful thing. It kinda makes you imagine being a parent someday (A long way from now granted, but someday). Even helping out with Sunday school and enjoying the conversations I have with 1st and 2nd grade kids reminds me. To be able to instill all you have learned and have a deep love for a child that came from you is something very special. I love helping and teaching others and the ultimate responsibility would be a family. I do have a desire also to be a servant and what better way than taking care of the house while my future husband is off at work? I really would be OK with giving up being an astronaut if it meant I wouldn't be a good wife/mother. I'm not sure what to do, then, but if God doesn't bring someone into my life, then I will need to have a job to support myself, so a degree is important. Either way, God would provide, so there's no need to worry. In this world women being independent and equal with men in the workforce is common, but maybe it's not the best. In fact, I know it's not, the Bible never condones that. Well, Proverbs talks about the ideal woman, and... I have a long way to go.

There's Peace at the End of the Rainbow

2006-03-18T21:54:00.000-08:00

Well, I promised many people that I'd write a blog about yesterday's track meet, so here it is:

To give you a full appreciation of what God did for me yesterday, I have to go back to my freshmen year. I started a new track season with a naive ignorance (isn't that the same thing??). Little did I know the ridiculous things I would endure as I slowly but surely stopped trusting God and let fear take over. Let's face it, from the very first meet, I discovered that I was TERRIFIED of competition racing. I would get a heavy feeling in my heart for days before the meet even arrived and I was rendered into a mass of quivering tears when it finally arrived. (Ok, so I'm being a little over-dramatic, but it was pretty ugly!) I did the long jump and the 4x100 relay no problem, but the 200m... oh man did I fear that sucker! The unsureness of which heat to go in and how to set up the blocks followed by the horrific sound of a gun going off... I was miserable! And yet the second I would start to run, I would feel the weight being lifted. When I crossed that finish line, I was the happiest 9th grader in the world! I was done! But soon after, I would realize I'd have to do it all over again, and the weight gradually sank back in. One time, I even refused to get on the bus for a 1/2 hour or so. Then my new approach was to plead to do the long jump and the relay but not the 200. I got out of it a couple of times. What's amazing is God allowed our relay team to make it to state and actually beat our school record in spite of my pathetic actions. All in all, I ended the season with a positive outlook... happy to have beaten the record and happy to promise myself I was done with track. Never again would I set foot on the track to compete........hah!

So here I am, junior year, back in track after a golf furlough of sorts last year. After talking with Coach Holt and realizing there were no senior girls, I became the girls track captain. Me, who had cowered in the corner the regular season track meet I had been at. I decided to work hard at practices by doing my best to keep up with the guys while jogging and listen to instruction the best I could. It was difficult to want to spend the 2 1/2 hours dedicated to listening to suggestions on nutrition and events and running hard sprinting exercises at the end, but I did it anyway. Still somewhat unprepared and out-of-shape, I realized my first meet had arrived. At school I had to push it aside due to 3 quizzes/tests I had to take before getting on the bus, but I still felt very nervous and sick. I realized it was the track meet pressing down on me once again. My irrational fear had returned. I knew I had to give everything to God or I would be absolutely lost.

I got on the minibus with Bible and iPod in hand. I listened to my favorite worship songs and read David's psalms to the Lord. Then I closed my eyes and took a 1/2 hour nap, falling asleep to my prayers. "Give me peace, Lord. I want to run for you... I want to give you my trust and stop my fear... give me peace." I awoke from a tap from Dave and the sound of the girls laughing- we were almost there. I looked over at Andrea next to me and realized, I have to be strong for these other girls, they've never even competed before! As we passed the Concrete sign and saw the track looming ahead, my face got pale. All through the warm-up, I felt awful and my friends asked what was wrong, "I'm terrified." was all I could say.

Philippians 4:6-7 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and
supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the
peace of God which surpasses all understanding wll guard your hearts and minds
through Christ Jesus."

First up was the 100m, a race I hadn't run since junior high. I watched three of our guys race first and then I was up. God gave me Mr. Johnson and Dave to help me get ready and feel confident. I truly did love the new type of blocks Coach Howard made for us, and I was ready to go. I was still nervous, but I did feel peace creeping in for the first time. God also gave me something to laugh at: David was holding my blocks for me and the guy said, "Stand behind your marks." I couldn't seeing as how Dave was sitting there so I was off to the side. He stared at me, "Get BEHIND your marks." I hastily stood behind David. "On your mark." "Oh my gosh!" "Get set..." "Watch out, here I come!" -CRACK- "Oh yeah, baby!" I tore out of there and ended up getting 2nd place out of 5. Not bad for my first race. I was feeling better. Next, I walked over to the long jump pit and laughed. I hadn't practiced much and it was starting to rain like crazy. I was cold, my hair was frizzy ringletts and I was having fun. I got 12 feet on my second try (I had scratched the 1st). It was freezing! My best jump two years ago was 12'10" so it was pretty blase'. But, I only had time for one run-through and my footing was way off. Then, I would've got 13' something, but my foot was somehow 2 feet behind the line, so I only got 11' something. Oh well... it's a start, I didn't care. Poor Andrea got injured in her hurdle race, so we didn't have to run the 4x200 meter relay any more. Jamie and I realized this right before we had to run the 200. By that time I was just excited to run it and be done. I was pretty calm and walked over to the area. It was 4 girls from another school and Jamie and I. I wondered how fast they would be and secretly figured I'd be close to last place. As we got set and the gun went off, I heard another gun. But, all the girls kept running, so I did too. Everyone was yelling, "STOP!" After 50 meters, we finally realized something had happened. One girl had false started and she was out of the race. I had to hear the gun one more time. This time, the man didn't give me enough time to set up. I guess he was impatient. I didn't get the best start, but I took off. In practice I had been working on pumping my arms higher and driving my knees up.

While I was running, I instinctively looked down and used my hands to play with my shorts. I didn't realize I did that until Coach Holt, Coach Howard, Mr. Johnson, and Dave asked me about it later. I laughed: I remembered thinking that it felt like there was nothing there on my thigh and I was making sure my shorts weren't all the way up or something. They felt so light and I had never run in them before. Despite my "costume" adjustment, I ended up being first place thanks to the lean Coach Johnson had taught me in practice. I couldn't believe it! I was finally done! I grabbed Jamie in a hug and almost started crying. I had finished my first track meet in 2 years and actually did well! I turned to face the other side of the field and saw a beautiful rainbow covering the length of the field. I thanked God and smiled at the significance to me: The rainbow was a picture of God's promise... not the flood this time, but that He would always be with me. I never had to fear... He would always give me peace. I hugged Coach Johnson and Coach Holt when they walked up and made everyone laugh with my giddyness. Praise God.... praise God! The rest of the evening was relaxing and fun. Erwin showed me pictures of WW2 planes on his iPod and then we stopped at Burger King. We chatted about our elementary and junior high years at Grace and shared good and bad memories. I finished the ride home with Brian Regan. When my head hit the pillow that night, I smiled... the rainbow will always mean more to me now.

I Puked at the Paramount And All I Got Was This Puny Post

2006-03-11T16:06:00.000-08:00

This blog is purely about my realization of something... I have the best friends in the world!

(And please, don't do that annoying, "Uh-uh! I have the best friends in the world!" 'cause you just don't, ok?! How can I prove that I have the best friends in the world? I don't have to prove anything to you... you're just sitting in front of a computer screen reading a blog, obviously you don't have that awesome of friends because you're not doing anything with them!)

It has been a long week for me, with video filming, a spanish report, and the musicale, but I didn't want to neglect a thought I had on Tuesday evening after I left Esther's house. So, God has brought me to a wonderful school and church where I have so many opportunities for leadership and growth! Now, I love all of my teachers and pastors and I get to serve on a student council and be captain in two different sports, but I think the most special part of all that is the friendships the Lord has given to me.

Although most of us endure extended periods of teasing and mocking, we
really do love each other.

All of my buddies that fateful day were concerned about me and encouraging me to feel better by laughing with me about the absurdity of the situation. We came up with quite a few awesome quotes! They didn't leave me to fend for myself, they were constantly checking up on me before and after. And, yes, the title is exactly what happened, and, yes, I'm embarassed about it, but the whole internet world can know all because I want to thank God for my brothers and sisters! True, it was a semi-comical event, but hey, it was still disgusting and my friends were faithful even then! You'd never guess it from the banquet promo video, would you? Nope, and we had quite the adventure that day from cave-like parking garages that threatened to rip off the antenna to cell phone directions to pouring rain to gorgeous chandiliers to staying up 'til 3 in the morning. What a day... what a day... Banquet will be so stinkin' awesome! (And I mean this 100% truthfully:) It will be the best one yet!

So, to all of my friends, especially those who went to Seattle... I love you guys! I can't wait for more memories together all the way up to praising God for eternity in heaven. (Yessss! No more sickness!) You always are such an encouragment! I love going through life with you by my side during the hilarious and hard times!

As a side note: don't wear a fancy dress when you don't feel good- it's dry clean only for a reason :D (Wow... gross and funny... I love it!)

Crepe Contemplations

2006-03-01T16:27:00.000-08:00

Weird title, I know. That might be because I am currently typing this in my kitchen while cooking Costa Rican crepes. If you haven't listened to the radio, typed a blog, and cooked Costa Rican crepes at the same time yet... you should definetely give it a try. No joke, that bizarre combination has inspired me to recall lessons I learned in chapel today. So anyway, Pearce was talking about good 'ol Peter. A normal, act-before-you-think type of guy always wanting to impress Jesus who was transformed by the power of the Holy Spirt. The same God that resided in Peter after Pentacost is in all believers! It's unbelieveable that we ignore the power we can have if we only live for Christ. He can get us through anything and will give us victory over sin if we make Him our ultimate love. The thing that really stuck with me was Peter's denial of Christ. We are quick to roll our eyes at Peter's bold argument with the CREATOR of the UNIVERSE that he would never deny Him and would die with Him. But, just because we don't have servant girls coming up to us and asking if we are followers of Christ, we deny Him every day. Pearce alluded to this, but my thoughts kept exploring the truth further.

We deny our Lord and Savior every day.

I was surprised to find out how true it really was:
When I am afraid... I'm denying His protection.
When I am upset... I'm denying His sovereignty.
When I complain... I'm denying His provision.
When I take praise... I'm denying His glory.
The list goes on... when we sin, we deny all that Christ did for us in the sense that we aren't showing others joy. We seem to not really believe that He is in control. We play the hypocrite.
Don't deny! I BELIEVE JESUS IS THE CHRIST THE SON OF THE LIVING GOD! May that rooster never crow for me!

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For those of you still wondering, "What's with the crepes?" I have a Spanish country report that I'm doing on Costa Rica with Esther and I'm testing out the recipe for our presentation next week. They taste pretty good, almost like a waffle cone.

For those of you still wondering, "What IS a crepe?" It's a thin pancake made with egg batter typically associated with the French. ooh la la

For those of you still wondering, "How do you say crepe?" Just say grape and replace the g with a hard c.

For those of you still wondering, "When will this post be over?" The answer? Right about...

Now.

I Vant to Suck your... Windshield?!

2006-02-20T08:04:00.000-08:00

A very random occurance (technically providentially ordained) happened to me on the way to evening service last night. A bat, yes a bat, decided to fly right into my windshield on Highway 9. He even left a circle spot (because of the dust on the side of the glass). It kinda freaked me out because it was a big thud when I was driving along, but also because I don't usually get to see a bat! I actually like them, but not when they're attacking my peripheral vision! Hopefully future driving excursions don't result in such terror by night! :D

I think the WA state patrol needs to put up one of these babies:

My attempt to catch up with JE's 60,000 pages

2006-02-16T20:27:00.000-08:00

Well it's definetely about time that I posted something about the 06SR. I can't even begin to share with you all of the thoughts I had or special moments on the retreat, but I will do my best to give you at least a little glimpse by typing some of my notes from messages and cabin times. If you have time, there's always the 06SR dvd (I apologize for the part in the daily videos where I was rapping. Sad, I know, but just a spontaneous breakfast rap can't hurt... or can it?) with the testimony time. I was among many who shared- a very sweet time of fellowship and glorifying God for what He did! Thus most of this post is fact, not necessarily my personal application, but I'll definetely stick in a few things here and there! :) Well, here's some key points or things that "hit me" from my notes:

*There is a "shock and awe" campaign happening every day = when you get a drink from the cisterns of the world. That's how you choose to quench the thirst of your soul?! We drink from what we believe will give us satisfaction. It's more than foolish to ignore God, it's EVIL, an infinite disregard for God. You do not have a moment of life without God. How do we give God glory? By knowing Him truly and rejoicing in Him! His value is far above us! You need doctrine and emotion, truth and affections to properly glorify the Lord. Do you dare insult the living fountain of water?

*Cistern: A holding tank carved out from rock for catching and storing rainwater (This didn't "hit me" other than the fact I never knew what it was in the first place. So, head-knowledge-wise, it hit me, kicked me in the pants, etc...)

*My (Yes, some of my personal ones which I discovered) Idols: my happiness, doing what I want, enjoyment, being comfortable, accomplishing my goals, making myself look good/funny, desiring my health, trusting myself and my abilities, my judgement of others

*Why should we distinguish between wheat and tares when we will be seen as judgemental and legalistic? Unbelievers will be deceived to their eternal ruin, believers will be confused about what they're supposed to do, and the church is weakened by the lack of purity and distinctiveness. IF WE KNOW SOMEONE'S HOUSE IS ON FIRE, WE SHOULD TELL THEM!

*Why listen to JE? (Jonathan Edwards! Note: This picture is perhaps even more creepy than the creepy head!) He had an intimate knowledge of Scripture, a vivid awareness of his responsibility, and a passionate love for God! He is stinkin' awesome! It's quite a conviction that we all could be a great testimony like JE if we would love God more...

*Trials weed out posers, prove the genuineness of faith, and purify faith. Genuine belivers stay joyful because they rest their hope in Christ.

*Everything you do comes out of your affections whether negative, positive, or neuteral. There are varying degrees of affection and because God is infinite we can never love Him enough. Don't disegard or minimize affections or religion becomes a lifeless formality. You need both light and heat. Seek to stimulate your affections with truth and be ashamed that your love is not what it should be. What do your affections say about you? about your love for God?

*YOU ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO

*Just Because...you have religious affections, you do religious things, other people think your affections are genuine, you yourself are confident IS NO SURE SIGN OF SALVATION. Don't rest your case on inconclusive, unreliable testimony. Your soul's eternal consequence depends on it!

*So, how do you know you're saved? You have spiritual affections (feeling conviction over sin, knowing and valuing Jesus, seeing His fruit, walking in righteousness, understanding of Scripture) that are Godward (sweet new word Copyright SKH 2006). Hypocrites have joy in themselves. Mirror vs. Window Illustration (also Copyright SKH 2006) Both objects allow people to see a reflection, but a saint looks through the window to God in all his holiness and beauty, forgetting himself. A hypocrite looking at a mirror sees only himself. Genine affections are also truth-driven, nature-changing, relentless, and fruitful. As we are being sanctified, we decrease as Christ increases. Our passion for the Lord is like a fire that wants to grow bigger and get hotter. Our fruit before others and God is the conclusive evidence! We should stand out from the world. There is no need to despair in sin, just give your life to your Heavenly Father who will give you the strength to glorify Him.

*Biggest problem with the church: the inability and unwillingness to distinguish between true believers and false. JE made a stand against the Halfway Covenant and other practices. He upheld the holiness of the Lord's table. It cost him his job. Yet, his scriptural committment was far more important to him than appeasing church boards and members. HE LOVED GOD.

*Our Modern Carelessness: we must distinguish for the sake of the unbelievers. It's not arrogant or judgemental- it's love! We must feel the weight of eternal matters and repent from weak loves!

*A man of God... his happiness is out of the reach of his enemies

And now my notes on what I learned for Friday morning testimonies at the retreat:

~Importance of both knowing Him and delighting

~I don't care enough about the people whose houses are on fire

~God is not at the top of my affection lis many times and I can see that in what I choose to do; I choose to stare at the reflection in the window

~I've been blessed with a good amount of light (head knowledge of many Bible things), but I often don't have the passion for Him (heat)

~It is very possible to have peace and confidence in my salvation, but I have to rest completely in Him

~If I love God with everything and He's the most important thing, my love for others will grow and my joy will be complete no matter what

In closing, I leave you with my favorite lyrics and songs from the 06SR. Thanks for reading! My your love abound still more and more, my brothers and sisters! :)

06SR "Favorites" (Probably half the songs in the book! :)): All Bow Down, Before the Throne of God Above, Blessed Be Your Name, Complete, Consuming Fire, Famous One, God of Wonders, He Reigns, Holy Is the Lord, How Deep the Father's Love for Us, How Great is our God, In Christ Alone, Indescribable, Innocent, Magnificent Obsession, Much of You, Soli Deo Gloria, You Have Loved Me

06SR Top 3 (my #1) : Before the Throne of God Above, Great is Our God, In Christ Alone

Lyrics:

BTGA- "My name is written on His hands, my name is hidden in His heart...When Satan tempts me to despair and tels me of the guilt within, upward I look and see Him there who made an end of all my sin... One with my Lord I cannot die: my soul is purchased by Hs blood, my life is safe with Christ on high, with Christ my Savior and my God."

FO- "You alone are God...Revealed by nature and miracles, you are beautiful."

HDFLFU- "I will not boast in anything, no gifts, no power, no wisdom, but I will boast in Jesus Christ, His death and resurrection."

ICA- "No guilt in life, no fear in death, this is the power of Christ in me. From life's first cry to final breath, Jesus commands my destiny. No power of hell, no scheme of man can ever pluck me from His hand. 'Til He returns or calls me home, here in the power of Christ I'll stand."

MO- "You are everything I want, you are everything I need. I want you to be my one consuming passion. Everything my heart desires, Lord I want it all to be for You, Jesus, be my magnificent obsession."

YHLM- "You have loved me more than I have loved You, pursuing me even in my sin"

Double-K or Bust!

2006-01-30T07:44:00.000-08:00

Well, it's the morning before the 06SR! It was very nice to have small groups at church yesterday. We went to the Sarr's house and just shared and prayed to get our hearts ready for retreat. Mrs. Bone gave us a few passages to read about loving and walking in the spirit. When I got home, I packed while listening to a John Piper message on having one passion (for God's glory) that Esther gave me from Resolve. I am so ready to be challenged by the Word and love God more! I'm so sick of selfishness whether I see it in myself or students around me. I pray that this retreat will open people's eyes to the ugliness of loving themselves above all! I'm also excited to see how God will get us up to the retreat. With I-90 and the other way around closed currently, it's a veritable Red Sea. I've put my trust in God that He'll part the snow and allow us through. Even if He chooses not to, why worry, He's in control of everything! :) Well, please be praying for the hearts of the students, SKH's endurance, worship team, leaders, Double-K... anything you can think of! The Lord will honor those prayers if given from a right heart and we appreciate them so much! Thank you! See you in a week or so when I'm sure I'll have some life-changing (at least they changed my life) thoughts to post!

Losers of the World Unite!

2006-01-22T20:17:00.000-08:00

Well, it's time to update, imagine that! To start it off on a not-so-spiritually-impacting-note (Oh YEEAAAH! +10 pts for ridiculously long phrase), I was able to see the Summit and Double-K while riding to and from Yakima for my Veterans of Foreign Wars award banquet. I am pleased to report that the online cams are not lying, there is glorious snow! Snoqualmie definetely has more (the roads were closed in by huge walls of plowed snow), but Double-K has a solid layer! My parents and I even stopped to eat breakfast at the restaurant at the Summit. (Not to mention a brief trip to the outlets in North Bend...) Now I'm very excited that God has blessed us with snow once again and another SNOW RETREAT!

As for what God has been teaching me lately:

Do you ever feel like a loser? I do.

Quite often, actually. Whether it's brought on by a basketball loss or not winning the essay competition to go to my favorite place on this planet excepting Disney World, Washington D.C., sometimes I feel like I got the short end of the stick. "Why is it that everyone else gets their moment of happiness? Why can't I ever do anything right? If I had just done ___ instead of ___, we would've won!" These, and more questions have plagued my mind recently. But, eventually the light bulb turns on and I thank God for lighting my dark error. Feeling like a loser is one of the best things in the world because you finally realize that you ARE a loser... without Christ. Since when do things in this world matter? I would rather win a game against North Sound than trust that God's plan is better?! I would dare blame God for letting me down than praise Him for allowing me to get as far as I did?! Pathetic! This weekend was all about loving God more than anything! I lost the game... I lost the opportunity and competition... I lost my health (I got a loverly cold complete with many tissues and a sore throat that I am praying will be healed by snow retreat)... but I never lost my Lord and my God who will carry me through anything if I just surrender my life to Him! I'm sick for a reason! Guess how much more I'll have to rely on my Heavenly Father to get me through Finals now that I feel horrible! It's a beautiful thing, isn't it? Ironically, it truly is. When I feel the worst, I can put a huge smile on my face knowing that I am being tested by fire only to come out stronger in the end because Christ is in me. (I've loved reading Paul's epistles lately!) So, this week, I proudly embrace my loser-ness, from sports to school, from health to responsibilities... I am worth nothing on my own! I love God and know that I must give my 100% for His glory, instead of trying to get my own (which doesn't work out too well by the way). I can't wait to be in heaven with Him, but until then... Losers of the world unite in praising our Savior who is the sovereign Lord of all! For in Him alone have we won the greatest gift of all- eternity praising Him!

P.S. Just in case you're wondering, here is the essay I wrote for the competition this year. I was privileged enough to win 1st place in district:

“We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal; that they are endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable rights; that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.”
These words penned by Thomas Jefferson epitomize the ideals that inspired my ancestors from Europe to begin new lives in America. Thus, I was born an American citizen. Although I did not do anything to deserve my freedom, I have been blessed with it. So, how do I express this gift? I demonstrate my freedom by staying involved in my community and country and supporting those who fight for the rights of others.
For young adults especially, it is extremely important to stay involved in the community and country. My freedom allowed me to work for my local senator and see democracy in action. Volunteering at an aviation museum showed me the value of creativity and hard work. That same freedom also allows me to work for a fair wage and learn at a private school where I serve on the student council and participate in sports. As insignificant as these activities may seem, they are the essence of true freedom.
Now, as I look to an exciting future, I have the freedom to find a college and gain a degree in any major I desire. Then, I can find a job I look forward to doing or even begin raising a family who will have the same or better amazing opportunities. Clearly, making my own choices and working toward my goals is demonstrating the freedom I have as an American and as a fearfully and wonderfully made human being.
The other and most important way I demonstrate my freedom is through supporting those who fight to gain freedom for others. There are still many countries where men and women are forced to work in squalid conditions, live in abject poverty, or follow a specific religion with no regard for their own desires or choices. Imagine living in a third-world country where food, water, and health care —the most basic needs of life— are unsure. They have nothing but hope, and some have lost even that. Being blessed with freedom should make us understand how valuable it is and give us a desire to see it enjoyed by all, not just ourselves. Those who truly understand this are willing to fight for it.
Jeffery Starr, a loyal Marine, lived and died by his understanding of the value of freedom. I recently read his farewell letter in a story shared by my local newspaper. His passion reminded me to keep fighting to give others freedom:
“I don’t regret going, everybody dies but few get to do it for something as important as freedom… It may seem confusing why we are in Iraq, but it’s not to me. I’m here helping these people so that they can live the way we live. Not have to worry about tyrants or vicious dictators. To do what they want with their lives. To me that is why I died. Others have died for my freedom, now this is my mark.”
As Jeffery Starr proved, far more important than the actual demonstration of our freedom is what we choose to do with it. Sadly, some people demonstrate their freedom by choosing to do nothing. When tragedies happen from tsunamis to hurricanes, whether worldwide or local, they are content to ignore them. Some are so busy complaining against the government, they fail to recognize their brave troops or see the sufferings of people in other countries. Their lack of action is a disgrace to those who have fought for our freedom both past and present. I will not be one of those people. I will show the world what it means to have freedom and what it means to properly demonstrate it throughout my life. Whether by donating to relief funds, encouraging the fight for freedom, or speaking out on important issues, I will be involved in my community and country and thus leave a mark on my world.
The brilliant scientist, Albert Einstein, understood the rich value of liberty when he said, “Everything that is great and inspiring is created by the individual who can labor in freedom.” I will be the individual who gladly labors for the people of the world desiring the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

Wickedly Wonderful Widgets, WOW!

2006-01-14T18:53:00.000-08:00

Just a short little thought from me: I love widgets! After seeing their potential on DZ's computer, I was once again wistfully longing for a new Mac laptop. My hopes were no longer needed, however, when I saw a link on the Yahoo! homepage. I could get widgets for my Windows laptop! (I got the one my sister had for the 1st two-and-a-half years of college.) About an hour later, I had all my favorite widgets downloaded and happily performing on my screen around a picture of our soccer team after winning our league! Here's the ones on my screen now:

Marysville weather (from tonight to Wednesday and the condition of the moon)

Analog clock (complete with a turquoise rim, a ticking secondhand, and the date)

To-do list (customized with my weekend homework)

Napoleon Dynamite *image that when clicked on, produces quotes (Flippin' Sweet!)

Black Knight from Monty Python and the Holy Grail * (swallows, coconuts, newts...)

Yoda * (who doesn't want to hear the little guy talk backwards?)

Darth Vader * (with classics such as "Luke, I am your father.")

Sun with the planets continuously rotating around it and on my screen

Google conversion calculator (i.e. 6 cups in liters)

Volume control (easier to change)

Yahoo! maps search (If I need directions or anything...)

Stock (My parents bought me some stock in Starbucks and Gap awhile back)

Digital clock (just in case I want to look at it instead of the other 2 clocks on my screen :))

Move times (for Regal in Marysville, Olympic in Arlington, and Loews in Alderwood)

Anyway, just a fun little addition to my computer and a nice, relaxing way to end Eagle Week. I was never upset about planning things this past week, which is a complete blessing! The only reason I cried at all was because I was so tired I couldn't think. The other time was due to realizing that my friends and I had been slacking so much on having integrity and focusing on God. All-in-all, a great, but tiring week!

Mostly I need to fulfill my responsibility to get all of the stuff in my car put away and to do my homework, but I'm definetely looking forward to spending time in fellowship at church tomorrow! I could use some refreshment and corporate worship time! :) I can't wait for Snow Retreat! I know God will answer my prayers to convict me where needed and give me a passion for Him and loving Him with everything I have!

2006-01-08T21:27:00.000-08:00

Turquoise is the new pink... for me anyway! :)

2006-01-08T21:23:00.000-08:00

As you can imagine, for Mall Escapade this year, we recieved quite a few strange looks as we entered the mall together... quite the random group of people! I love it!

2006-01-08T21:21:00.000-08:00

Greetings from India! Well, more like Es and I in disguise...

Funny Face (June 06)

2006-01-08T13:22:00.000-08:00

What's black and purple and red all over?

2005-12-31T17:49:00.001-08:00

Well, new year, new experience for me. Within 6 hours or so it'll be the new year anyway... The new experience I alluded to is none other than getting a black eye for the first time. It's more like a purple with a red cut line black eye, but who's really paying attention? My face met two elbows on the basketball court. Two lovely ladies were going after a rebound flying over my head and their elbows came down on my cheekbone. Quite comical, actually. I kept getting the tease of being a boxer: "Hey, when's your next fight?" My response: "Eh, next Friday... but you should see the shiner I gave her!" Most of the girls just stared and smiled: "Wow! That's gonna leave a shiner!"A little blood won't stop me. ;) I had a better free-throw average with the injury though! :D (100% since I only shot 2 and made them both) Coach Holt was hilarious on the ride home! We were all cracking up at everything he said. DO YOU HAVE YOUR RECEIPT? (You had to be there to get that one!) And after each tournament day... Alfy's Pizza and Taco Bell two nights in a row! Sweetness!Well, I'm off to a New Year's party soon. I can't believe it's almost 2006 and halfway through my junior year! The good news is once finals are over... 06SR! Hallelujah! I'm excited to see what work the Holy Spirit will do in the hearts of those attending!

Happy 2006, everyone! One New Year's closer to the return of Christ! Yesssssss!

Say WHAAAT?

2005-12-27T09:58:00.000-08:00

If some of you were wondering why people call me Chispeante sometimes (and it will be on the back of my b-ball sweatshirt when we get them), it is from Espan~ol 2! It means "sparkling" and it's great fun to say! Chees- pay- ontay (more or less :)) It kind of matches my thinking with Celestialshine- I love sparkly things in His creation like stars and I want to shine brightly to bring the Lord glory! The story of my aliases! Thanks for listenin'!

By the way, the sweet picture is representing one of my favorite birthday presents! It charges my little pink mini iPod, lets me play any songs I want, has a radio and alarm... it's great! Yes, it's all vanity, but it sure allows me to enjoy the iPod I purchased more. And it's awesome to listen to Chris Tomlin or something while reading the Word! Perfect combination! Sing praises to God and read His Holy Bible!

Speaking of, one of my favorite Christmas presents was a coupon of the MacArthur Study Bible NASB coming out in the spring! I can't wait! I think NASB is my favorite version, especially because it allows me to joke: like the true SKHV, this one is the Natalie Ann Spencer Bible. :) Only because I own it, though, not like I did any translation work!

The Wrong of Relationships

2005-12-27T09:47:00.000-08:00

So, I had a few more thoughts while sitting in the back of our van on the way to visit my grandma:

The problem with so many of today's relationships is that it's all about you. You are trying to find someone who can make your life complete and make you happy. You are so focused on getting the best possible dates or the best-looking spouse, you forget what you're really supposed to be doing-

Matthew sound familiar to you? "But seek FIRST the KINGDOM OF GOD and His righteousness, and all these THINGS will be added unto you?" Things may not be directly referring to a spouse, but, hey, it is most definetely a thing that can hinder us from seeking God. Plus, if marriage relationships are going to be completely changed in heaven, then why should that be the primary focus?

I've seen it in so many Godly couples from my parents to many one28 leaders- marriage is about sacrifice and putting your spouse first. It's not a "you" thing! Adam may have been lonely no longer, but he probably didn't treat her like dirt or force her to cook all day for him (this sounds like I'm fighting for women's rights! :) Nope, women are under the authority of their husband and must take care of the househould!). Divorce was not an option, it's not the cure-all when you get too tired to work on your marriage. Only one reason is given in the Bible for divorce being ok, but I doubt many of the divorces follow that. One man one woman for as long as you both shall live, ok?

Let's get our focus off of loving relationships and the search and onto loving God!

My Thoughts WAAAAY Past the Expiration Date

2005-12-25T13:17:00.000-08:00

Oh my goodness! I cannot believe I have not written in so long. Well, I guess I can believe it because... well, it happened... But enough of that! I have wanted to post a blog about the awesome purity/lust/relationship messages we've had "surround-sound" style (i.e. for a while there Sunday mornings from Pastor Z and SKH and Wednesdays with SKH). So many deep and challenging things were convicting me and encouraging me to listen to the warnings before I put myself in stupid situations. I might not be able to elaborate as fully as I would like seeing as Christmas lunch with my family is about to begin, but I'll God-willing be able to write the basic gist:

I have discovered what kind of pleasure-seeker I am. Ironically enough, SKH mentioned it in a sermon indirectly after I had my little revelation, but I hadn't posted a blog about it. I am...

A "Happily Ever After Pleasure Seeker"!! As many of you know from my enthusastic glee while at Disneyland, I am a huge fan of many things Disney. I watched all the classics as a little girl and had the happily ever after mentality seared into my little blonde curly-headed mind (sorry for all the needless adjectives there). While having a depressing moment a few weeks back, instead of turning my thoughts to God, I said to myself, "Well, it'll all be better once I'm married." That one little thought made me first, laugh, then stop and search for the source. Why do I think that once you are happily married and find "the one", your life will be perfect?! By the horrific divorce rate present in America, that obviously is not true, so why would I even think that?! Hmm... (thinks deeply while "Once Upon a Dream" goes though her mind)... could it be the obvious message portrayed in so many Disney princess movies? Think about it... most of their lives are "oppressive" (The HORROR of having to do housecleaning, live under the sea, have a feast served by magical silverware, pick berries, or, GASP, live in a palace!) and what saves them? Finding prince charming, no less! They get to sing a romantic little song and ride off into the sunset. You ever notice they didn't show life after marriage until the ridiculous set of sequels popping up everywhere. Even then, the movies still have happy endings! I will admit the only kind of movies I truly enjoy have happy endings although for life on earth that's extremely unrealistic. For a Christian, of course, death is a happy ending leading to a glorious beginning of eternity praising God in His holiness. But, if I don't seek Him fully now or fail to control my attitude and act like a little brat, how can I expect one ceremony to bring out my best and completely sanctify me? How can I believe that once I have my own house, my own kids, things will be different? What in the world!?

Well, I just got the lunch call. Perhaps God will allow me to finish my thought later! Merry Christmas! Praise God for His wonderful, merciful, gift of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!

After a delicious meal...

Interstingly enough, I have no desire to get married anytime soon, which is a very good thing, I'm sure. I am quite aware of the fact that I am still an immature adolescent and I need to be much closer and more in love with God before I can take any sort of "relationship" seriously. I know how important having the right spouse is and I take that very seriously. I also was reminded a few messages ago that if I'm focusing on finding a guy so much, that means I'm not satisfied with God and I have such a small heart to think it's all about pleasing myself and having some guy who'll tell me I'm pretty or something. Obviously, if the marriage relationship will not be present in heaven, we shouldn't be focusing on that and certainly not more than our love for our Eternal Father! It makes me so sad to see the pathetic boyfriend/girlfriend relationships of elementary students all the way to high school. Some, granted, are going about it the right way, but can you honestly say the majority are making the right choices? Obviously, God will use it as part of His plan for their lives, but still, we make mistakes! It seems like each year opens the door of "dating" to younger and younger people! I once heard a 2nd grader talking about the woes of his girlfriend who kept him on a tight leash. WHAT?! Aren't these kids supposed to be watching cartoons and playing with action figures or building forts or something!? What are the parents of America and the stupid media teaching these children? Sure, it's "cute", but don't you realize how much of a set-up it is? You are setting them up to have a ridiculous heart break and continue to have fruitless relationships that only end in emptiness!

The most infuriating thing to me is the people who can only be described as flirts. UGH! Disgusting! What do they really expect to get out of parading themselves as stupid little drooling giggling masses of hormones?! (And the adjectives come back again) (Wow. Killer quote right there!) Do you really want to be in a relationship with someone who falls for your foolery? What's stopping them from dumping you after a few weeks for the next hot person who makes them feel special to come along? How dare you dress in suggestive clothing and try to entrap guys into liking you! Do you really think that gives you any value whatsover?? Where's your sense of self or protection of the temple where God resides (or if you so boldly act like this maybe He isn't the one residing in your heart!)? You people make me sick! Although my first response is obviously one of disgust (slight understatement), I do have some pity hiding behind the fiery eyes of disbelief. I have had many friends who act like this and most often it's due in part to the lack of love in their life. They have not chosen to accept Christ or their Heavenly Father and they have families who are barely holding on. That does not excuse this ridiculous action, but I should definetly be praying that their heart will change. I want them to have a wonderful, Godly man who will protect them and their honor for the rest of his life. I want them to know the love of their Lord and Savior and treasure their unique personality and talents. Why they feel they have to act in such a flirtacious way when they are often the prettiest and most amazing people, I don't understand. Be who God has called you to be! Don't cheapen who you are or ask others to indulge in your lust for feeling better about yourself.

Wow! I haven't thought about that for a long time, but that's my two-sided thoughts on flirting. Anger and pity. Weird. Maybe the first reaction is that of selfishness and perhaps even jealousy of the attention they receive and then I realize how sad it truly is and my heart wants to help them to God. I'll have to think about that some more. I need to go get my notes from the past sermons so I can elaborate more for your reading pleasure. Actually, I think it's more a of a self-helping thing to have my thoughts be typed into something I can see more clearly. Well, whatever the case, I'll return later... By the way, why do they even have a wingdings option for a font?!

Do you always do what everyone else does?

2005-11-20T17:42:00.000-08:00

Ok, I admit it. I got a myspace. The only reason was actually pretty random. I wanted to have a pretty star background but blogger.com has a limited amount of templates, so I thought, "Hey, why not get a myspace?" It seems like it will help me keep in touch with old friends too, so I'll give it a try! I'll definetely have to delete it, though, if I keep getting questionable comments or whatever. Let me know if you see anything that concerns you on it! :) Thanks!

2005-11-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

Who knew the Colonists and the British looked so stylish? Esther and I pose during the making of a history video about the War for Independence. It's the debut of Cowco, the colonists' cow insurance of yester-year!

Now... I Need You Now... More Than the Air I'm Breathin'

2005-11-17T21:13:00.000-08:00

Ok, so admittedly, it's been a pretty long time! But I have a ton of things on my plate and not that many people read this anyway... :) I've always thought of my blog as a fun way to record memories and have a reminder of some of the things God has done in my life.

Well, basketball started this past Monday. That is very exciting! I always seem to forget how much I enjoy basketball. It just feels good to be able to run and score points (which doesn't happen THAT often, but I'm gonna work on it!). So far, we've come up with a play I fondly call "I don't know". So, if you ever hear me shouting that out on the court... it's not a mistake! :) I'm so grateful to the Lord for preserving me so far (after my bad ankle ligament tear last season) and allowing me to really enjoy this sport. It always cheers me up! I've played basketball the longest, so I have more experience and a more important role on the team. I'm not saying that I don't like soccer, in fact, I think I have more respect for talented soccer players than basketball, but I'm just better at basketball. That's kind of a "duh" reason why I would like it better. Plus, there's always a bunch of people hanging out at the home games and it's fun to see old, new, and current friends to chat with. I'm also a huge fan of the concession "stand"! I LOVE helping out with it... so much fun! Well, my biggest concern this year is being a Godly example to the other girls and working hard. I'm praying that we'll pull together and truly feel like a team... not JV vs V or younger girls and older girls... but together! I think it will be a good, but hard season.

Maybe we'll be blessed with a lot of wins... maybe not... only God knows! :)

My main struggle these past few weeks has been being faithful in reading the Word and battling lack of sleep, homework, and sore muscles. I had kind of a break down today because I was so disappointed with my lack of spiritual growth. I guess that's a good sign, but I'd better do something to change it, or it's worthless. I ended up reading my Bible during school for a long time to get refocused, but my mind kept going away from the page and into prayer and thought. I was, of course, directed to the perfect passages for me to hear. The infamous section about being tested but never too far. I found such comfort in hearing that even in my dispair, God was still there protecting me from destruction. I absolutely must focus more on heavenly things, though! I find myself disgusted with an attitude I had during the day or the way I said something... an opportunity to talk about Christ that I wasted... He was not my main focus, and that caused me to have so much grief! Thankfully, although the No Tresspassing talk is preventative medicine in my life, I was really deep in thought over one of SKH's comments. In essence: people are pursuing these silly relationships because they're not satisfied with God. WOW! What a revelation that was. Even though you'd think it would be obvious, I never directly thought about that. It made me realize, not with relationships necessarily, but just in all areas of my life, seeking other things means I'm not satisfied with God. How utterly pitiful! I don't think Solomon could've been any more clear about this, but many people, including myself, just aren't getting it! I imagine we must look completely lost and pathetic to God. Amazing that He would love and save us! I'm so thankful for that hope. I want to break free from the ridiculousness of searching after life under the sun... definetely something to pray about!

By the way, my title consists of lines from a song I love that has been encouraging me for the past few weeks. It's so true... we need Him more than the air we breathe... more than every second... He gives us each breath anyway!

More thoughts to come... (hopefully within a reasonable time period unlike my last blog gap!)

Your Sister in Christ, *Nat*

We are the Champions, My Friend... and We'll Keep on Fighting...

2005-10-25T20:09:00.000-07:00

Very exciting news: We (the Grace HS Soccer team) are officially league champions. Not only do we get a sweet banner, 3 people get Starbucks cards!!! NO STINKIN' WAY! ;) And everyone on the team got to run through a victory tunnel set up by the fans. That was fun! Anyway, it was a crazy game, but we came out on top, so... YEEHAW! What a wonderful blessing! We still have to keep up the hard work, though, if we want to make it to state! I love soccer especially because it keeps me humble! I will never be in danger of having pride over my soccer skills, because I know how limited they are. It's great knowing the only thing you can do is hustle and play your best, no matter how pathetic you feel compared to other players. I truly admire those people who are really talented at this sport, it's not easy, and you have to love it to play well!

On a different note, it was awesome to have a prayer meeting at lunch today for the 06SR. I loved getting my priorities back in check and focusing on God! I hope and pray that this weekly opportunity will continually remind me of how much I need Him and should love Him!

Well, I need to go finish up taping a speech for an essay contest (VFW) that I do every year. I'll post more later this week if I get a chance.

2005-10-17T20:46:00.001-07:00

Only Disneyland lets you pose with your buddies in a teacup! ;)

2005-10-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Cinderella's castle... all decked out for the 50th anniversary!

2005-10-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

We can fly... to Never Never Land?

2005-10-17T20:44:00.000-07:00

(As SKH would say:) Hmm...

2005-10-17T20:43:00.000-07:00

Mr. Z relaxes with his good 'ol cellphone!

2005-10-17T20:42:00.000-07:00

Yet another buddy picture! Yeah!

The Happiest -TRIP- On Earth!

2005-10-17T19:31:00.000-07:00

I just returned from what had to be the best trip of my life (or equal with the DC trip perhaps)! I love Master's and am hoping to complete general ed courses there for two years before going to an engineering college somewhere else. They just don't have the right major, but why not do the first 2 years at a college with a wonderful Christian foundation? I have so many wonderful memories that I can't share them all. In fact, I won't share any other than to give you some quotes from the trip. It would just take too long! :)

Well, here they are:

Get a free chur-ro! Jokes.. jokes. I thought we just didn't eat quiche! Moron! I found Nemo and he's smashed! It's "A small world", not a small German! Don't forget, don't forget the Mexican spices! Jump, Mickey, jump! Neighborhood queen, are you still kissin' cowboys who cry Josephine? They're not dwarves, they're just vertically challenged! I only kiss men in Russia. And no more happiness! Women on the floor! Shut up, you little punk!

Well, I guess I can just list a few memories without too much detail...

eating at BJ's, going on rides (space mountain, indiana jones, small world, pirates, haunted mansion, honey i shrunk the audience, tarzan walk-through, matterhorn), hanging out in the dorms, visiting classes, listening to music, going to denny's really late, walking around the beautiful campus, playing foosball, having ice wars, singing in the vans, seeing old friends and meeting new ones (Izumi, Chris, Jeremy, David, Susi, Charissa, Nathan, Lisa), visiting church services, laughing, laughing, and more laughing, visiting a recital, sliding down stair rails, seeing palm trees, discussing the "intricateness" and "creativeness" of Disney rides...

I'll probably edit this post and add more info as I remember more things! :)

Anyway, I loved it! Praise God for the wonderful time I had and giving me the interest to go to Master's. That door is certainly open right now. How awesome would that be to go there?!

Well, I'm tired and I have to go do math and spanish. I guess I'll post some fun pictures! Enjoy!

Love, *Nat*

Toto, I've got a feeling we're not in Washington anymore!

2005-10-12T05:33:00.000-07:00

Good morning to you all! I usually don't get up for school until 6, but I woke up at 5:15 and couldn't go back to sleep. I tend to do that when I am excited or nervous for something. I came downstairs to read a few Psalms and get my heart in the right place before I take the PSAT. As some of you know, I've been working hard to have the philosophy of: "I'm just gonna do my best... there's no point in worrying... I will get EXACTLY the score God wants me to get... and regardless if I do well or not, I'm gonna praise Him!" (definetly NOT grammatically correct, but "it's my blog and I'll mess-up if I want to"! Well, technically it's God's because He made me and he gave me the ability to set up an account and write these words and... wow, backed myself into an ever-loving corner! Apparently I don't function too well at 5:30!) If anyone happens to read this somewhere between 8-12 this morning, please pray for me and the other students! It would be much appreciated!

ANYWAY, to mention the Lopez game yesterday, it was a bit disheartening. By the end, I wanted SO MUCH for our team to finish well and win the game. When that didn't happen, in essence, my heart had been broken. Sounds cheesy, I know, but I just belived and hoped that we would do what I knew we could do. Anyway, being the girl that I am, that made me cry (or weep bitterly, whatever you like) on the ride home. As much as it hurt, I am thankful to God for that lesson. No matter how frustrated or disappointed we are, God has a plan for our team. We have to keep our joy in Him and build up one another to good deeds (or good plays/crosses :)). And avoid forgetting to take out clips and (oops!) bobby pins, bandanas, and putting on shin guards!

Now to finally arrive at the subject that my title hints at... MASTER'S TRIP! I am excited, but not nearly as enthusiastic as I will be once the weight of the PSAT is gone. Granted, God is giving me much peace right now, but it is still a weight in my mind. As for the trip, I can't wait for the wonderful fellowship, good music, and learning about how Christian colleges are run. (I want to be able to compare other Christian colleges to Master's and/or decide if God wants me to go to a non-Christian-based college. By the way, if you were interested, I'm thinking about: Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University (FL), WSU, George Washington University (DC), California Poly-Technic University (CA, DUH!), 3 smaller ones in NY called Alfred, Drexel, and Renassler?(2 of which are "Christian"), and Le Tourneau (TX- Nicole Shultz goes there). On most of these, I'm just going to apply and see if God "opens the door". If you think about it, I would love prayer for this decision as well that I need to make in the coming year.

So, to close, I want to type up parts of Psalm 9 that really encouraged me this morning:

"I will give thanks to the Lord with all my heart; I will tell of all Your wonders. I will be glad and exult in You; I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High... The Lord also will be a stronghold for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble; AND THOSE WHO KNOW YOUR NAME WILL PUT THEIR TRUST IN YOU, FOR YOU, O LORD, HAVE NOT FORSAKEN THOSE WHO SEEK YOU! Amen! Soli Deo Gloria! See you next Monday... more like Tuesday!

Ya Got a Dead Yak Up There!

2005-10-04T21:50:00.000-07:00

Check this out! Pretty funny clip from Mr. Regan about Hanes being his sponsor.

And here's a very short one about Italian Food.

I'm Fat, I'm Ugly, and... I'm gonna poke my eye out?!

2005-10-04T19:48:00.000-07:00

This is more of a frustration vent than a blog, but, oh well. Have you ever felt like you don't know why you're doing something. Like you feel so utterly pathetic and worthless that your embarassment never ends? You feel you could easily do better, but it just isn't happening?

Welcome to my life playing soccer. I love watching people who actually have skill and really enjoy playing, and I wish I could help the team out more. (Especially when I'm given the awesome opportunity to play forward, and I completely waste it!)

Well, that's when I smile and laugh at myself because I realize I forgot my eternal perspective. For pete's sake, (And don't ask me who Pete is... I don't know!) the only reason I can walk and think and breathe and do ANYTHING is because of God! I should be thankful and realize that NO, I'm absolutely not going to be the best or even just remotely good at everything. It just means I have to play my best... whether that means using mad skills on the field or cheering crazily with a British accent.

Well, whether or not I play well, God is good! And praise be to Him for giving us the wonderful soccer players we have on our team, starters or not!

Thanks for listening!

Mmm... yes. What's with Family Guy?!

2005-10-03T18:55:00.000-07:00

I am quite confused, to be perfectly honest. After hearing so many hilarious quotes from this wacky cartoon, I decided to check it out Sunday night. Although many things were very funny and amusing, I couldn't go for five minutes without hearing at least 10 swear words. Now, maybe that was the specific five minutes I actually watched it or just a random dirtier-than-usual show, but if that's normal... why is it so popular with so many of us? I mean, I understand humor just as much as the next guy (just sit next to Esther and I at school for more than 2 seconds or watch me laugh crazily due to lack of sleep), but at what cost? If this show is constantly sticking in inappropriate things, no matter how funny the clean stuff is, why are we willing to encourage others to watch it and see how great it is?! What kind of mixed testimony is that?! I wish they would keep it "clean", but they don't seem to at all! Doesn't that bother you?! Please share with me, my brothers in Christ especially, what's up with this? I'm worried that we're becoming too much like the world! I definetely need to work on not pursuing temporal pleasures, so let me know if you see an area in my life that doesn't add up... this is just my attempt to help you in your Walk. Is Family Guy an edifying part of that? Or... am I just missing something obvious? Thanks for reading- please leave thoughts/comments! Love you all in Christ!

Ode to Air Compressors/Sirens/Whatchamacallits

2005-10-02T17:51:00.000-07:00

At 6 in the morning, the boys had no clue

They slept in their cabin with snoring so true

But soon they would find to their great surprise

Some knocking and giggling from girls half their size

At 1 in their cabin, the girls made a plan

The two goofy leaders just gave them a hand

The one with the curls kept smiling so bright

Thinking of giving the boys quite a fright

Earlier for games Pearce had then found

This awesome compressor with horrid a sound

Instead of ringing the old, muffled bell

The loud, roaring screech worked really quite well

So sneaking across the wet grass and the ground

Esther and Nad were hard to be found

They quickly went in to try to succeed

And found their dear leader ready to heed

He set up the rules- don't bother his guys

But other than that, he let them decide

They grabbed the container and ran out the door

Ready to do it and laughing some more

Alarm rang 'round 6 and girls left their beds

The light switch came on and some hid their heads

Making the trek across the damp hill

Was not very easy when eager in will

When finding the cabin of targeted guys

Their window was open to size very wide

In hushed delight the young ones began

Pounding the wall to wake every man

When given the signal, the handle went down

The earsplitting noise gave firm a resound

Accomplishing their deed, each one turn and ran

A sprint to the bathroom and clapping of hand

Before they returned, each one gave a laugh

The light was now on from the porch they had rap'd

One guy hit his head, but another just slept

Still, it was worth it- a prank had been left

So let this be lesson to those who still think

They're free from all pranking- they won't lose their sleep

If you hear some giggling and whisp'ring at night

Beware of the girls from cabin named 9

2005-09-24T17:21:00.000-07:00

To end my posting today, I leave you with a cute picture of Daniela and Kim listening to music and eating apples after our 1-0 victory!

2005-09-24T17:20:00.000-07:00

I took a ton of pictures at our last soccer game against Bear Creek. This is one of my favorite! Good form, Mike!

2005-09-24T17:17:00.000-07:00

Here's my Dad and what's left of our deck. It was rotting I guess... maybe he just wanted an excuse to demolish something! ;)

2005-09-24T17:14:00.000-07:00

OK, so here it is... the infamous fish picture posted in the office! Mr. Sarr insists that I look like I just gave birth. Anyway, I got to go fishing with Mr. Kacker and my dad last Saturday and caught a 12 lb salmon. Less than 20 were caught that day out of 77 boats! Once again, the Lord blessed me hugely! He was pretty tasty! Yum!

Doesn't anyone else have a testimony?!

2005-09-24T16:47:00.000-07:00

Howdy! I was just cruising the one28 website and found to my dismay that, yet again, I am the only one with a testimony online! I seem to remember SKH telling EVERYONE that they could send him their picture and testimony oh, only about a YEAR AGO! I want to hear how my one28 brothers and sisters became saved... someone please be added to the list! I would just love that! Anyway, now that I've gotten that out of the way, I am so excited! This year has been full of homework already, but God has blessed me with tons of fun things to do too! I've gone to the fair, Olive Garden, great small groups, soccer party @ Coach's, soccer games... and I get to go to JH retreat, Cristiano's, Master's Trip... the list could go on and on! I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for taking care of me like that! Just allowing me to enjoy many things when I am faithful in my school work! After having to take all last week off from soccer because of a strange, humongous bruise, I feel ready to play again! I am sure I will be exhausted after the first practice due to getting out of shape, but praise the Lord I can even run and kick again! Because I wasn't playing last week, I had enough time to sit at practice and do homework and even make a fun movie/slideshow of our game against Bear Creek to show in Chapel this Wednesday! It was all part of His great plan! Sorry for the mumble jumble of thoughts, but it was just a short update. I need to get back to doing homework for next Thurs. and Fri. when I'll be on the JH retreat as a cabin leader! Hasta luego!

P.S. If you see Chris McAuliffe this week, say: "Hola, Sabio Pato!"

I Am So Cool! (Just for you, SKH!!)

2005-09-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

Actually, the title has nothing to do with this blog, but was a joke for our dear shepherd! Ok, muy bueno... I STARTED SCHOOL ON WEDNESDAY!! (I know, it's a big shock for all of you... NOT!) I was very much looking forward to starting. With the first day games/events out of the way, I finally got a glimpse of what my school year was going to look like. I've come to the brilliant conclusion that it is strange. Mainly due to the fact that I am driving and that senior year feels very, very close! It's also bizarre realizing that I'm not going to be at Grace Academy for much longer. I've gone there since kindergarten, so it's like my second home. I truly belive I spend more time on our beloved campus than my actual home at least during the school year. What's exciting is feeling like you're used to how things go and you can share your experiences with younger grades and newer students. SLC is also a huge opportunity this year as well. God in His sovereignty allowed me to become vice president and I pray I can live up to that calling. I hope we can truly lead our high school to a spirtual revival of sorts (or to use one28's favorite term- reformation!!!). I don't want to go through another year just sitting through 7 classes, doing sports, or planning events without keeping God's agenda for my life first. I don't want to look back on graduation day June 2007 and realize I missed a huge opportunity. I've got to give a last push... finish the last stretch... sew the last button (or any other comparison you might think of) so I can give a positive account for my 17th and 18th year of life! College is going to be a huge change, so I should make sure to cherish the wonderful environment, teachers, and friends at Grace! Well, in closing, I will type the first part of 2 Timothy 3 that we were to memorize tonight for tomorrow in Mr. Peter's Bible class (more to follow as we memorize the whole chapter) and a few choice "Word of the Day" highlights:

"But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come." (NASB)

tintinabulation- the sound a bell makes
(This was extra humerous because I thought Stuart said "the sound a bull makes" when he said the definition. tintinaBULation- it makes sense! :))

chiasmus- inverted relationship between syntactic elements of parallel phrases
(Um... thanks Webster, I guess.) It mentioned something like: "to stop too fearful and too faint to go"

P.S. Our first soccer game is tomorrow against Orcas Island. I love ferry rides, don't you? We'll certainly give it our all! I'll have to post the scores when we return!

2005-08-23T20:02:00.000-07:00

"Some girls will do anything to get a tan!" Actually... I just posted this because I thought it was so hilarious! It'll make a great profile pic too! :)

Mind Game

2005-08-23T18:58:00.000-07:00

Hmm... so I've made it through 2 soccer practices keeping a smile on my face, but I've noticed something I really want to fix! We each get to share what we're learning in devotions before practice, and I know what I'm gonna say! :) God has been showing me I'm not casting my cares on Him! I worry about getting to practice on time, I worry about getting work days off... it's just ridiculous! But, now I am slowly realizing that worrying will not at all add an hour to my life or make things fix themselves! For pete's sake, God is in control and when I freak out about things, it just makes my attitude worse and doesn't allow God to bless my trusting of Him. It's not always going to work out the way I want it, but why worry? Is missing a party or something because of work really going to matter in eternity?! NO! He is my peace! (Australian version: "No Worries, MATE!") I have to trust Him that He is who He says and through Him I can do all things! I should try to remember that next time I feel like fainting on the soccer field. My strength cannot help me finish, but His is utterly sufficient- I just have to ask!

Let the Sports Season Begin!

2005-08-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

Hello there! Soccer and volleyball practice begin today! I decided in the end to play soccer although I had been considering volleyball for quite some time. I had to dig out my old cleats and shin guards and I just had to laugh when I saw how dusty they had become. It's a good thing I kept all my socks too! I would've had to rush out to Big 5 or something today because my decision to play was pretty recent! I am very excited for new memories and becoming a better player! I am sure it will take me a long time to feel remotely good, but then, I never have played it much, so I can't expect to be an awesome player or anything! I will certainly do my best! I'm also very enthusiastic to have a better attitude this season! When I played as a freshmen, I was so much more immature (Note that I still have a long way to go! :)) and I had a really hard time playing with so many older guys. I would take everything personally and cry about nothing. God has worked in me so much since then, and I can't promise I won't cry or have a bad attitude better, but I do know it should be a much more focused and fun season! I am a little nervous, but with so many of my friends playing, I know it will be just fine. And as Christ would remind me, I can't add an hour to my life (or a time warp to practice) by worrying! I'm ready to get out there and work hard to actually kick the little white thing with black spots! (Or is it black with white spots??)

2005-08-17T22:31:00.000-07:00

THE END! May His Name have been lifted high through it all! After all, He's the one who gave music to us and allowed me to go enjoy the concerts praising His Name!

2005-08-17T22:30:00.000-07:00

Looking a little sleepy, but still smilin'... :D

2005-08-17T22:28:00.000-07:00

Just turn your head to the right and you'll see a picture of my daddy and me enjoying the shade of our umbrella on the amphitheater hill!

2005-08-17T22:26:00.000-07:00

Ah.. the candlelight ceremony! Always reminds me that as Christians we really are like a light shining in the darkness. We have to make that effort to shine or the world will keep ignoring the truth!

2005-08-17T22:24:00.000-07:00

AA had a little too much fun! At least the lead singer tried on a couple hats...

2005-08-17T22:23:00.000-07:00

Cooling off at the state park is just what we needed! Not sure if we're tired or upset about losing card games... :)

2005-08-17T22:22:00.000-07:00

Toby Mac... quite the rapper at heart... he had a cool testimony!

2005-08-17T22:21:00.000-07:00

The guy ducktapes his headphones on... how cool is that?! Go Darren!

2005-08-17T22:20:00.000-07:00

Paul with his key-tar! :) At one point he jumped into the crowd and he was leaning right above us!

2005-08-17T22:19:00.000-07:00

Mute Math was awesome! The drummer is hilarious! We only had one person in front of us!

2005-08-17T22:17:00.000-07:00

Bethany Dillon was great! We got right up front too!

2005-08-17T22:16:00.000-07:00

On to Creation... why not start with yet another pic of Esther and I? We're such camera freaks! :)

2005-08-17T22:15:00.000-07:00

And in closing for Icthus, my favorite buddy picture of the trip! Ta-Daaa!

2005-08-17T22:14:00.000-07:00

An Australian store in Leavenworth?! Who'd've thought? We couldn't resist taking advantage of the hilarious hats!

2005-08-17T22:13:00.000-07:00

The girls prefer a more "homey" area to eat!

2005-08-17T22:12:00.000-07:00

Hmm... not exactly sure what Micah's trying to say here... you decide! :)

2005-08-17T22:11:00.000-07:00

Ah yes, good 'ol sittin' round the campsite!

2005-08-17T22:09:00.000-07:00

Let's not forget Kim... glamourous in pink!

2005-08-17T22:08:00.000-07:00

Esther takes her turn, adding her own mysterious vogue to the pic!

2005-08-17T22:07:00.000-07:00

It's pink... stylin'... what more can I say?

From "ICTHUS" to Creation and back!

2005-08-15T13:46:00.000-07:00

I hate to sound like every other blog out there, but I do have to say it's been a long time since I last posted! "ICTHUS" was an awesome time, especially the bus overheating on the ride up, exploring Leavenworth (The Four Amigos: David, Esther, David, and I. You'd never believe the first store we went in to was a place with tribal art!) and spending an entire day swimming (Bowers joined us and we formed an inner tube circle. I'll never forget his song: "Fat guy in a little tube." We also explored an island before just floating around and afterwards threw rocks at each other. A conversation inspired my classic quote: "I really am getting dumber!"). Esther was my buddy the whole time and that was sweetness too! (You always had to go places with at least one person) We also went stargazing (Now I actually know for sure the foolproof way to find the Little Dipper! :)) and had some wonderful lesson times and "cabin" discussions! On the trip back, David, Esther, Garrett, Micah, and I went to Taco Bell and Starbucks. Of course, we were late back to the bus, so we had the distinct honor of being the clean-up crew! Anyway, certainly an unforgettable time! I learned so much more not only about Christ and my relationship with Him, but also some friends I've known for a long time!

Creation was very hot this year, but having my dad with Esther and I made it much more bearable- we could drive away on little adventures or spend the day playing cards at the state park! During one of the first night concerts, I sat in the top left corner (and I mean top!) of the amphitheater in memory of last year! I don't know why, but it always seems more peaceful and beautiful sitting there. You can see wonderful parts of God's creation and still enjoy concerts without being smothered by people! I'll never forget my first time moshing either! I have to say I think it's pretty ridiculous at least at the really crowded concerts like Audio Adrenaline! I was squished on every side, it was hot, people were stepping on my feet... you can barely breathe much less hear the concert well! Not exactly my idea of fun! Mute Math and Bethany Dillon were pretty sweet though! Esther and I were standing in the center second to the front for both of them. We got some great pictures and really enjoyed it! There were tons of freebee stuff and we even got a sweet Narnia t-shirt. The movie looks like it would be enjoyable. I guess it comes out on December 9th, the best month of the year!! When I was in an autograph line for Joy Williams, I saw the "Boston Crew" which was a large group of 8th graders from Grace! They were fun to chat with, I can't wait to have them at events when they become 9th graders after one more year! Esther and I also visited the college group so she could "hang" :) with her brother and other friends. We even went out to that diner in vantage one morning in memory of last year's Creation! It was delicious! Speaking of delicious, I forgot about the funnel cake I had... yum! All in all, Creation was a wonderful time of praising God through music and fellowship! My favorites this year were MercyMe, Bethany Dillon, Newsboys, Joy Williams, Mute Math, Casting Crowns, and Caedmon's Call. I also really enjoyed the Living Illusions thing and there was also a very powerful speaker one night who was a former member of an Italian Moffia in the US. I wish I could remember what my favorite speaker talked about, but it was so good! He was the last one on the last night... anyway, it totally matched up with the myth of adolescence and stopping the trend of "truth is relative" and "Why aren't you loving them?" Praise God for a wonderful Creation 05!

I'll have to get up some pictures from both events... I have so many!

2005-07-04T11:56:00.000-07:00

Our very own Capitol Building from my page experience in Olympia! Not exactly "star-spangled", but still a picture of America!

Happy Independence Day!

2005-07-04T11:47:00.000-07:00

I thought it would be a great idea to post an essay that I wrote for the VFW contest last fall. Enjoy your fellowship and the fireworks, but don't forget why we even have the holiday! Praise God for the freedoms we have and the country we have been allowed to live and prosper in!

Here ya go:

CELEBRATING OUR NATION’S INDEPENDENCE

Celebration. Every American loves a jovial, exciting celebration. It is transparently seen in our culture. Celebration implies a definite reason to be encouraged and to share enthusiasm with others for a success. True, we have much to celebrate when reminiscing of veterans. America has been involved in many wars from the historic fight for independence to the current effort of spreading freedom. Their dedication and willingness to sacrifice all is undoubtedly worthy of praise! By keeping them in our thoughts and hearts and never taking freedom for granted, we can honor them.

But, time has brought a frightening unawareness. Children grow up learning to complain and rebel. How can apathetic, grumbling people appreciate a monumental sacrifice? On days set aside to specifically honor veterans, they merely see the opportunity to lie in bed a few hours longer. Many contend it is due simply to ignorance. Not so! We, as a nation, nonchalantly accept our freedom as a right. Like many other citizens, I used to believe I deserved and was guaranteed freedom. God and even common sense say otherwise: freedom is a gift! The founding fathers knew and lived by that truth! Today, few, like the men of the Third US Infantry at the Tomb of the Unknown, are an example. Every day their rhythmic marching drills the somber reverence into visiting American souls.

So, what is the answer? Are veterans more honored by sober memorials or impassionate rejection? The answer seems all too obvious. But, at the same time, how can militaristic ceremonies alone truly respect veterans?

There seems to be a great need for passion. Passion causes man to become more than ordinary. By having passion about the gift of life from a sinless, infinite God and from the surrender of fellow mankind giving a similar treasure, we credit our beloved veterans far beyond what thought possible! The passion that comes with living each day respecting past sacrifices, supporting present endeavors, and becoming future activists is missing.

Many still respect our veterans, but, something else so instrumental in the past is also missing in our day and age: support. The single, most important drive behind our service men and women is support! People are so bitter about the length of Operation: Iraqi Freedom. What if that was the case during the World Wars? Compare these facts: Japan bombed Pearl Harbor; Terrorists “bombed” the Trade Towers. Only a few decades ago, President Roosevelt called this great nation to action, “Where religion and democracy have vanished, good faith and reason in international affairs have given way to strident ambition and brute force…The United States rejects such an ordering…There comes a time in the affairs of men when they must prepare to defend not their homes alone but the tenets of faith and humanity on which their churches, their governments, and their very civilization are founded…To save one we must now make up our minds to save all.” The Americans of that generation responded. War efforts could be seen down the streets and avenues of every state! Just by looking at the hopeful faces of citizens, one could clearly see their determination and spirit! How disappointed the veterans must be to see the change that has taken place. President Bush called us to action. Where is it, a little yellow ribbon; a patriotic flag on the car? That is the extent of our once-proud American support? Our petty attacks on the government are not giving troops much to fight for! Sometimes I feel so helpless because I cannot change this alone! Why are we not supporting one-hundred percent the men and women who will become our next generation of veterans?

To truly celebrate the veterans of the past, we must pass on their spirit of optimism and pride to every generation. It concerns me deeply to know involvement in the military may someday be considered unimportant and part of only a political intrigue. I want to become a small part of the gloried troops, not for recognition, but in respect of those willing to do the same for my generation! Through my own remembrance, passion, support, and service I will celebrate! May I always share this celebration with others and thus turn our blessed nation around with the magnificent hope of the future!

Shout Out: HS SLC!

2005-06-30T11:08:00.000-07:00

Don't know if anyone on SLC reads this, but I just thought I'd try to remind all of you that JULY 17th is our first summer meeting at the Sarr's after evening service! PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE think through your event proposals BEFORE! Also be prayerfully considering the way SLC will be run this year and our motivation for many things. We have a chance to make a difference and re-define some things that may not have been the best idea to do! Thanks! See you all soon!

By the way... HAPPY 4th OF JULY!!

And... Congrats to John and Amy getting married... see you all there!

Shout Out: Small Group!

2005-06-30T11:02:00.000-07:00

Just a little shout out to all y'all girls in my small group! Like, you guys are totally rockin' sweet! I can't wait to see more of you... we'll share laughter... tears... FOOD! ;)

Bec Megan Katie Amanda Esther Sarah LaShani Jenee Kate Katie

Mariah Mrs. Sarr Mrs. Bone Mrs. Abbott STINKIN' GOOD TIMES!

See you around, my dears!

2005-06-30T11:01:00.000-07:00

What can I say... it's a classic buddy photo!

"Be Satisfied With Me"

2005-06-30T10:50:00.000-07:00

I discovered this poem/thought while searching for something completely opposite on Google... funny how that works! Anyway, I thought it was an awesome reminder and decided to post it. Sorry if I infringed on any copyright stuff, but the author wasn't listed... ;) This also reminds me of DZ's song: "So Lord help me guard my heart, 'til You give away the key." Enjoy!

Be Satisfied With Me

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

To have a deep soul relationship with another,

To be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But, God, to a Christian says:

No, not until you are satisfied, filled and content with being loved by Me alone.

With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me alone.

Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with one another until you are united with Me.

Exclusively for anyone or anything else.

Exclusively for any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop wishing and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing.

One that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You must keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am, keep learning what I want to tell you.

You just wait, wait. That’s all.

Don’t be anxious.

Don’t worry.

Don’t look around at the things that others have gotten or that I have given them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want.

You just keep looking off and away to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you,

When you are ready…

I will surprise you with a love more beautiful than you could dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready, You will never be able to Experience the great love that is waiting for you.

(I am working even at this very moment to have both of you ready at the same time)

Until you are both satisfied with Me and the life I’ve prepared for you,

You won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,

And this is the perfect love. And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want you to see in flesh a picture of your relationship with Me and enjoy the

Everlasting union of beauty, and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself.

Know that I love you utterly. I am God.

Believe it…and be satisfied.

2005-06-01T17:37:00.000-07:00

SLC Retreat '05- Sweet Memories!

The End is Near...

2005-06-01T17:31:00.000-07:00

Despite all appearances of an apocalyptic shout-out, I am referring to the end of the school year. (However, it is true that Christ is coming soon!) I simply cannot believe that next Friday will mark the beginning of another summer! The Grace awards chapel helped me reflect on the past year, as did our new yearbook. (I love the green cover and the creative "architectural/tool" theme!) Many of the things I did as a sophomore seem to have happened an extremely long time ago, while others feel like yesterday! What exactly DID I do? The most important thing to do, then, is not to gush over the "good times" like parties and Eagle Week, but to thank God for what He has done! Here are some special blessings dear to my heart:

He faithfully led me down the path of doing my best in school work
He gave me the voice and courage to try out for worship team (and allowed me to be chosen)
He challenged me to act on my beliefs instead of just spouting them to others
He helped me to do things I hate most and sacrifice comfort for boldly proclaiming truth
He showed me the reality that I am not above sinning- I have to put on the armor of God
He caused me pain for a short while to give me a thankful passion for what I have
He taught me the importance of loving others and putting them first
He allowed me to see He's all I need and all I live for
He opened my eyes to see the need for truly making a difference and making the most of my life

All I can really say... PRAISE GOD! Use the end of the school year to reflect on all He has done for you! It's the least He deserves for sustaining us and bringing us triumphantly through another year! Look out, Grace Academy, you'll have at least one junior ready to start over and (God-willing) be on fire for the Lord!

*Bye, our five one28 senior guys! Thank you for being so faithful to teach and grow in the Lord! We'll never have another group like you!*

Holy Is The Lord

2005-05-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

Snow Retreat helped me discover Chris Tomlin. I love the lyrics that he chooses to use! At the SLC Retreat, we took a late night walk around the Eastern Washington neighborhood. I had my iPod, so I started browsing the songs. "Holy is the Lord" stood out, and I kept listening to it non-stop. It was so wonderful... the sky was clear, the stars were bright, and I was reminded of His glory and awesome power. What a special reminder! However repetitive the words may seem, they bring a powerful message: God is HOLY! Here's the lyrics:

We stand and lift up our hands for the joy of the Lord is our strength!
We bow down and worship Him now, how great, how awesome is He!
And together we sing:

Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
The earth is filled with His glory!

We stand and lift up our hands, for the joy of the Lord is our strength!
We bow down and worship Him now, how great, how awesome is He!
And together we sing, and everyone sing:

Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
The earth is filled with His glory!

Yeah it's rising up all around!
It's the anthem of the Lord's renown!
It's rising up all around!
It's the anthem of the Lord's renown!

And together we sing, everyone sing:

Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
Holy is the Lord God Almighty, the earth is filled with His glory!
The earth is filled with His glory!
The earth is filled with His glory!

Holy, holy is the Lord Almighty! Holy, holy! Holy, holy is the Lord Almighty! Holy, holy!
Holy, holy is the Lord Almighty! Holy, holy...

2005-05-17T19:45:00.000-07:00

I may not be a real princess, but I learned how to pose like one!

The Blog Beginning

2005-05-17T18:50:00.000-07:00

Hello there! I was getting tired of the Xanga website because of all the limitations if you're not a "PREMIUM" member, so I decided to try this one! :) Not like anyone reads these anyway, but I enjoy seeing how God worked in my life since the last blog I wrote! I'll think of fun things to put on here, but right now I have to go do Computer Programming homework. See you soon! (I can't wait until FRIDAY -fantastic rallies including delirious activities yearly a.k.a. THE LOCK-IN! Hopefully I'll have tons of great memories from it!)

*Matt.19:26*