It's God's Plan, Not The Planet Alignment

Isn't it a wonderful thing that God is the one in control of our futures? I have been very confused lately just wondering what plans He will have for me in light of the plans I am attempting to make for myself. My family and I are going "college-visiting" over spring break by flying to Texas and driving along the gulf to Florida. More than warm weather and good memories, those two states hold two colleges (of four total) I am interested in. LeTourneau University (TX private Christian) and Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University (FL private). So here I am making grand plans to do well on the SAT or ACT and go off to college for four years to become an aeronautical engineer. Then what? Oh I plan to be married sometime after that and working at NASA... WAIT A MINUTE! I have no idea what will happen! How can I even begin to assume something, good grief! I don't know where I will live, what job I will have, if I'll even be able to find a guy who likes me (and loves God most of all), if I'll make it in to any of these colleges, if...if...if! If I try to plan out my whole life and think, "Ok, THAT's exactly what will bring me happiness," I am dead wrong. Ecclesiastes has made that crystal, looking into the fountain of life clear. I must find joy, right now, in being a junior and doing the research paper I have to do today, and going to work this evening. As for the trip, while I'm down there, I'm going to make sure that my heart is right with the Lord so I listen to his prompting. I know He will guide me if I ask.

Another issue I'm unsure about goes back to the good 'ol days when one28 was held on the opposite side of the hallway. I believe we were somewhere in the relationships series and the topic of the role of women came up. My favorite moment, of course, being when SKH made an illustration like so: "How can a woman be fulfilling her responsibilites to her family if she's off doing something else... orbiting around the moon or something!" Of course, that was before he knew I wanted to be an astronaut, so it was a very comical moment. Everyone, ok not EVERYONE, turned to look at me. I thought it was hilarious that he chose that, but it honestly did get me thinking. I was the farthest thing from offended, I know that comment happened for a reason. Since that time, I've often wondered why I had that desire at the forefront of my mind instead of being a wife and mother. I've always wanted that, too, I guess, but I never really thought about the conflict that might come from being so busy as an engineer. Seeing all the wonderful relationships of the one28 staff with their children is a beautiful thing. It kinda makes you imagine being a parent someday (A long way from now granted, but someday). Even helping out with Sunday school and enjoying the conversations I have with 1st and 2nd grade kids reminds me. To be able to instill all you have learned and have a deep love for a child that came from you is something very special. I love helping and teaching others and the ultimate responsibility would be a family. I do have a desire also to be a servant and what better way than taking care of the house while my future husband is off at work? I really would be OK with giving up being an astronaut if it meant I wouldn't be a good wife/mother. I'm not sure what to do, then, but if God doesn't bring someone into my life, then I will need to have a job to support myself, so a degree is important. Either way, God would provide, so there's no need to worry. In this world women being independent and equal with men in the workforce is common, but maybe it's not the best. In fact, I know it's not, the Bible never condones that. Well, Proverbs talks about the ideal woman, and... I have a long way to go.